Can't Decide to Laugh or Cry
For J. C.

Sometimes...
     I'd hold my breath for eternity
     And more than once I'd pray to God for the stars to freeze
Always...
     I've held you wrapped in robes of silk and mist
     While the wind whispered songs reminding me of you

See I had a love...
     but the love wasn't real
I had a girl...
     but the girl wasn't right for me
I had a life...
     but he took that away from me
Now there's only me
 

~Jan Brian Vis 1