I broke down today.
After finally dragging myself
Out of bed at 2pm
To wash you out
Of my eyes.
You were civil, when spoken to,
As a piece of fruit,
Only one more reason to
Despise you, fucking whore.
Walking out the door now,
I see i'm too late to do anything
Now,
So i walk.
I strut with fire in my eyes and
Cher in my head
Until i lost you.
Then i saw someone
Who reminded me
Nothing of you.
Slapping his hands into the
Fingers of a
Baby grand.
After 20 minutes of
Feeling worthless,
I ran
Outside
To the middle
Of a circle
It seemed.
Fell
And cried
For hours
It seemed.
So i broke down today.
And while i hardly want you to feel so
Important and adequate,
Because you weren't,
I'd still like to ask;
What's so wrong with me
That i'm not enough for someone
Usual as you?
 

~Jan Brian Vis