Title: Rocket Science
Author: Biko no Senshi
Rating: NR
Warnings: Disturbing content, dark? Heero POV (should that even be a warning?)
Disclaimer: I don't own GundamWing, I'm just borrowing the characters. I don't make any money off of this. The song belongs to The Pimps, off the MI:2 soundtrack, and it's called 'Rocket Science'. I don't own the song either, it's by the 'Pimps', off the MI:2 soundtrack.
Feedback: engel@gundamwing.net

//I never wanted to be anybody's anything.//

I was stolen from my parents to be raised by an assassin and a mad scientist. What do I know of freedom, of my purpose - one I chose, not one that was given to me whether I liked it or not - something I wanted to do, not that I was told?

I might have died that way, if I hadn't met Duo. He changed it all, he messed me up, just like the little girl with flower, so long ago. I was retrained then, to be completely without emotion. Will they retrain me now? Can they? I don't want them to, I want to survive. I want to live.

//Let it be known.//

Duo was so divergent from what they had told me. He chose his revenge, he wanted in some way, as much as we all hated to kill, he wanted to do this. He hadn't been abandoned to a single fate in someone else's hands. He had been abandoned, yes, but he chose. And when I saw him, I wanted to choose, also. I wanted that freedom - to think, to feel - I wanted to be myself, not someone else.

//Let it be known.//

I never asked to be the Perfect Soldier. I don't know why they made me this way, but Doctor J did it, and it is too late to change that. I've been too long without feelings to ever truly be adjusted. Somehow Duo doesn't care.

//I never wanted to be anybody's anything at all!//

Doctor J sees me as an object - the Perfect Soldier. Relena sees me as some kind of prince fallen from the sky for her. Zechs Merquise, I suppose, sees me as something of the Perfect Enemy.

//I never wanted to be anybody's anything at all!//

But...

//Let it be known let it be known//

Duo sees me for myself, when I can't even do that.

//-anybody's anything at all...//

Perhaps...

//-anybody's anything at all...//

Perhaps I care for him. He is good to me, good for me. I want to learn from him what it means to be myself, how it is to feel again. I want him to teach me how to live. He can teach me, I know.

//-let it be known let it be known-//

He loves me.

-Owari-

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