Secret!!!!!

Welcome to my secret room!

I dedicate this room to a former friend, Eugene, wherever he may be. I do so because even though we stopped talking over petty differences, I truly enjoyed his company. He would like this sort of thing, secret rooms and all. So I dedicate this to you Eugene. Amor!

In this room I would like to take the chance to tell all! I may seem like a truly positive person when you visit my website but in reality i'm not. It's hard to stay positive when you feel so much pain inside. Honestly, i'm a lot better than I used to be, thanks to Lakia, but I still feel very insecure at times. Am I good enough for this person? Why couldn't I be cuter?

I try to do get through, and I'm doing okay now. But who knows how the future will take it's toll on me? Do I have to be lonely the rest of my life because God says it's wrong for me to love another man? Apparently so. I want to please God but my heart aches at the same time. I guess in my case it's truly a sacrifice. To make God happy i'm gonna have to be unhappy. At least that's the way I see it.

But i'm so lonely!

God please help me!