February 2001

Entry #6: 02/05/01...9:51PM

Alrighty folks...
Just got back from Indy, visit for the weekend...& I am feeling much more secure in my decision to move here...Ever go someplace that you used to go a lot & wonder why you ever went there???
Indy's a great place, but I just don't feel like I belong there...not that I'm sure I feel that here either...
I saw some of the guys I had dated...Some changed, some not...All great guys though...
Of course, the best thing was that I got to see my best friend, Tony (new pix coming soon). He's unfortunately deluded himself into thinking that I am coming back there to live again...I mean, I love him & miss him a lot, but I just don't want to be there...I feel bad that he feels left behind, but he knows that all he has to do is come up here...hehe
I guess I should talk about Michael...He & I broke up because he has to begin a new life in Colorado...great job offer...So I wish him well, & hope he gets all the joy that he deserves...He really is a great guy & I feel lucky to have had the chance to know him a little...So, any Colorado guys reading...Snatch him up quick!!!
&, as for me...Indy was just the ego boost a dumped guy needs...hehe...Seriously though, let you know how I'm doing soon...


Entry #7: 02/08/01...8:38PM

Got nothing to say really...Just thought I would log in & ramble for a few to see what came out of my subconcious...
Sometimes I wonder if anyone is even reading this...(hint hint: someone comment on it in an e-mail...hehe) Not that I have that much that would be thought provoking enough to warrant a journal, but still...idle curiosities...maybe an ego boost...hehe
What can I say??...Gotta keep it honest, right??


Entry #8: 02/14/01...12:51PM

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!!!!
Even though I don't have one right now, I'll be cheerful about all those that do...
Well, I sent the pix in to be developed from Indy yesterday so I should get them back in a day or three, & then you can see that new pix of Tony ...YAY!!!
Well...I was reading this article in TIME the other day all about cloning & how close they are to doing it to a human & I just about destroyed my little soapbox by standing on it so long...I've prety much exhausted the anger it caused, but I do plan on looking into the control issues... I accept that cloning in some senses is a good thing(medical breakthroughs in replacements), but I fail to see the good in creating an entire person...
Well...That's about all I have going on now...Sad, huh??


Entry #9: 02/21/01...1:14PM

Hey guys...
Well, the pix are all up now of my Indy Visit...So feel free to check those out...


Entry #10: 02/25/01...11:55PM

Well, it's been an interesting weeked to say the least...It's hard to want someone when you know that for some obscure reason it just won't work...
On another note though...I'm thinking that I'm going to apply to be a bartender on cruiseships in the summer...I feel like I need to see more of the world...& I feel like I need to do something to make my life more in my hands...
Well, I don't know that I have much else to say tonight...
I feel lost, more than I have been in a long while...but I think that I'm gonna be okay...Sometimes the only way to find something is to lose it, right??


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