May 2002

Entry #43: 05/07/02...10:45AM

Okay...Let's talk...
Well...Finally found a job...Doesn't pay as well as TMC, but I think I'll like it a little more.
As for the whole relationship thing...well...not a lot of progress there, but I don't really feel as lost about it now...I've kept myself single long enough to be okay with it...hehe...
I sort of have a "friend" when I need the carnal aspect of it...hehe...Normally, I don't do that...I have a problem separating a FB from a BF...One night stands are one thing, but to consistently see one person makes it harder to discern the difference. With this guy though, it just seems natural that that's all it is.
I know it sounds odd, but it's true...
At first, I felt sort of guilty that I was pursuing what many would term an empty act. & I suppose that would be true in some ways. Although I don't really see it that way. Sex is a personal act. It is the height of a personal action.
Hhhmmm...Maybe I should make this a rant??
Anyway...I feel a lot less lost about things now. I'm hoping that things continue to get better...


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