August 2002

Entry #50: 8/9/02...8:42PM

Well...I bet you're all wondering what happened, huh?
I chose to choose just one, even though I did allow myself to procrastinate for a little while longer...spending all my time with Michael.
Hhhmmm...I wrote his name first thing, scary...
He doesn't know about this journal though, so...*shrug*...Although his cousin does have my site addy...Hhhmmm...
I think my thoughts are too jumbled right now...I'll write more later...


Entry #51: 8/10/02...7:58PM

Okay...Tonight it's just me in the room so I can focus better...hehe
I already said why I chose Michael...though I do feel kind of weird writing that. It's odd how you find yourself in a situation that seems slightly out of your control, yet you maintain this thought process of choice. I didn't really have to choose exactly, though I know that Mark would not like being 1 of 2. I also know that Michael seemed confident, as he should have it turns out, in himself.
Mark is truly a great guy...& a lot of it is just that I felt a click with Michael that I just felt to be wholly transitive with Mark, & already fading. Whereas, with Michael, he constantly charms me with an intuitiveness that belies his innocent bearing. Though I, no doubt, invest much of that bearing on my own.
Enough about him though...hehe...He's leaving soon for Muncie anyway, & then I'll have to figure out what to do with that...
More later...a little jumbled again...


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