November 2002

Entry #52: 11/7/02...5:26PM

Okay...I'll leave out the usual promises to do better on upkeep. Why lie??
As you can see a lot of time has passed, flowing with it tons of noteworthy occurences, yet still no entries...Sorry
Mark read entry #50. He was understandably upset with me. Things did get a trifle ugly, but quickly dissipated. He remains in my mind, a great guy, just for some one else.
Michael & I are still together. After much discussion & rehashing of dates we've chosen 7/20 as our anniversary date.
Geez... What all do I say, considering all that has passed??
He & I are madly in love with one another. Such a simplistically bold statement, but it sums up a lot quite nicely.
I have cried 3 times when using the word love...
-When I told Terry, I cried in guilt for all the things I had not done, but knew would come to pass. -When I told Jason, I cried for much the same reason, but mostly for an innocence that I would taint. -When I told Michael, I cried because I was happy, scared of course, but not of being wrong as before. I feared all the vague things that one fears when using a word that powerful.
Michael & I's relationship is wonderfully worry free for me. I always enjoy myself around him. I feel his absence when he is gone. I only worry that I am unused to how to deal with being happy.
When stood next to all the worries I have had in my life I can cope with that one easily.


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