O.K., here it is, a bit about myself.

Well I lived in NY for about 2 years then, with my ant, my little cousin that was a girl as well, my two cousins, and my father.

I was about 7 when my Ant punish my cousin and I for doing mischief by making us put on dresses, well my cousin cried like my ant call it a "little girlie".

Me instead, I acted like the little girl I wanted to be, and she actually was convinced that I was just being a good boy (little did she know).

Well as you might guess it, I just could not seem to behave like a good boy, so I could get to wear those wonderful little girl outfits, this went on for about a year, until one day my father walked into my ant putting that dress on me, and warned her that it was not the proper punishment for a little boy,(so yes those days ended then).

However the sensation stayed, I Ended up going back to the country where am from. At around 11, like human nature, I started as putting my older sister clothes when they where dry form the cloth line.

I used to make a point to finish my homework as fast as I could, so that I could indulge myself wearing those clothes.

Well I am pretty sure my mother and sisters were suspicious or knew since every now and then they would come to pick up the clothes from the backyard, and will not see the clothes there, then every now and then my mother would come and get the clothes from my room while I was in the bathroom.

He-He yes I been a naughty girl since a kid.

Well when I turned 18 I started doing the dressing more often, and working so I did not lose a chance to go and buy my own dresses and feminine attire, I started going out to some of the clubs in NYC that have the Dressing rooms, so that you can change and yes it was fun.

When I was around 20 I was going out almost 3 times a month, until I meet the guy that would change my life forever.

Here is a little history,

Mr. John doe( u did not think I was going to give u his name id u?) started flirting with me in a club, I was really never interested in guys, other than dancing with them and playing the part when they flirted for the fun of it.

Well I have not changed my identity, I only like woman, but do act the part when am Ms. Joan.

But this guy decided that I was something he had to conquer, so as much as I rejected him he pushed further, we never were anything more than friends. Later I found was in reality an old acquaintance of my brother that upon realizing it was me wanted to get back at my brother for some problems they had back in High School. Well he did that, one night while I was clubbing, this guy asked me to dance, and I accepted, since we were friends, well we took some pictures as if we were a regular couple, I did not think nothing of it.

Well He got back at somebody, but it was not my brother, but me. A couple of weeks later, after we danced on the club, and he we had our pictures taken, my family asked me to join them for a chat, and my father was not invited.

Well at first I tought My father was sick, well it was not the case, it turns out that this ?????( I can not say that he was a man, since he did not act like one), had send the pictures we had taken that night to my brother with a note that said "your bro-sister was great" and claimed we actually had been involved on one his fantasies.

Needless to say that it ruin my family life!

Now I live alone, thanks to that little incident, my father never did found out, thanks to my family, but I think since I never had told them my secret, my family believed the whole story, and so I was not considered welcomed.

When I was 23 I finish college, and started working on a company that had me traveling around the world, and yes wherever I went, Joan was present. It was common that night of arrival, I was in the clubs on my best femme pose as possible.

Now am 31, I am still Hetero, I only like woman, although I have to admit I dated a trans-sexual, but I do not like man.

And yes Ms. Joan lives in within me, and never will leave.

To all the girls like me out there, stay as you are, there is nothing wrong with us, we have the best of both worlds, and we rule!

Well if I have anymore details about my life I will post them later.

Love,

Ms. Joan Cuty