Everyone needs to express themselves and vent, and this is the place where
I am going to do it.
Due to the nature
of the content in this section, I am not going to tell you my last name,
or where I am from.
5/1/02
Well, so be frank,
it's been oh, 2 years or so since i've written here, and well, i've started
to realize somethings about myself, and etc. I'm at college now so i get
to express myself more redily. Well, yeah , i'm Bi, but also possibly transgender.
just thought i'd let you all know.
12/20/99:
My name is Mary Ellen,
and as you may have guessed, I'm bi. I also have depression. I self-Injure,
and i have thought about suicide...I made these pages, so that teens like
me don't feel alone. Sometimes It feels like you are the only one in school
who has a mental problem, or that is queer. You try to hide it, because
if anyone in school found out, they would be scared, and might not be your
friend, or they might make fun of you.
But here, we are all different...and
diversity is what makes us strong.
I
think that we all have had something that was bursting inside us...makes
you feel like you can't express yourself...
I realy want to wear mens cloths. I love ties, and I love suits. But I
feel like I can't becuase my mother wouldn't understand. I've always wanted
to be a boy. It would just uncomplicate things for me.
Sometimes, I want
to stand on the top of a mountain and scream at the top of my lungs, "I'm
Bisexual!" I'm sure that some of you have had similar feelings.
I go to a special school for those who are emotional distressed. There
are about 50 students there. It has realy helped me a lot. If you think
that you might have to go to a special school like this, don't be scared,
because once you get used to it, it helps. it takes the pressure off too.
1/12/00
I'm overwieght. I have to face that. I'm bisexual,
but i prefer women, and only 10% of the female population is gay or bi.
And I'll bet more than half of them do now want to date someone who's fat.
That gets me very upset at times. "Will I ever find someone?" is a question
that is on my mind a lot. There are 2 girls at school that I like, and
I know that one is gay and the other is bi, but i don't think either of
them will like me. I'm trying my hardest here. I want some one SO BAD!
3/13/00
Hey, I haven't talked in a while. anyways...i'm
doing okay, havent cut myself in a few months! oh, and my dad taught me
how to tie a tie, so i like to wear them when i'm in my room...but this
sunday, i'm going to a friend of mine's friend's birthday party, and i'm
going to wear a tie there. nobody at the party will care, i don't think.
I'll tell you, when i put on a tie for the first time...it was so great!
it made me feel like me, you know? I'm still looking for a
women...and as it turns out, the two girls i mentioned in the last entry
are not realy good for me...anyways, hope you're doing as good as I am!
7/6/00
Sorry I haven't
writen in a while. (as if people come here to see what's going on in my
life!) well, anyways, I've had a few ups and downs, my two best friends
from school are going to college next year, and i'm going to be a senior...
one of them is takeing summer classes, so i don't talk to her much, but
she'll be back home when august comes around, and all three of us will
have a great time together!
Also Today, I was
looking at a catolouge for men's clothes, and i just wanted to buy a whole
wardrobe! i guess i'll have to do that when i move out. Not just ties,
too i like just that whole look. i love those collors....
that reminds me,
i need to get a haircut again... can't let it look to femine can I ;)
Sayonara for now!
If you have any
comments, or would like to speak with me, please dont hesitate to e-mail
me.
That's about all I have to say right now, but i'll write more as i go
allong : )
