October 11, 1998

I have been wanting to crossdress all this week, so I took the opportunity to night to do it… try on the old things… I am looking forward to the arrival of winter. I have a few outfits for cold weather… sweaters and such. I guess I should try to get some good looking guy clothes at some point. It’s kinda sad when the nicest clothes you own you can’t wear outside because they belong to the opposite gender… I can’t help but laugh I guess…

Oct 17 98

Yesterday I read in the paper that a boy in Georgia was expelled from school because he dressed and acted like a girl. The boy is 15 years old, and claims himself to be a heterosexual boy, who likes to cross dress. The administration decided to expel him because he was causing a disturbance. The other kids liked the boy and referred to him as both he and she. The psychologist said the boy was displaying some very unique behaviors associated with gender identity disorder. This article really it me. I was reminded of when I read Ozma of Oz, where the little boy gets turned into a princess.

I felt so out of myself, reaching for some handhold or safe Haven. What am I to feel or do? Am I doing the right thing, did I make the right Decisions? As always I live between worlds, between genders, wondering, exploring, and loving myself as what ever I feel at the time.

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