Now I was just weaning myself off of this one girl that I was 'seeing' on line... and I never... not EVER cyber with anyone... I figure... my monitor does not make me hot... and I opted not for the vibrator attachment in my mouse... BUT... when the words of this goddess appeared on the screen... I started to wish I DID have the vibrator attachment!!! (LOL)... no one... has... or ever will compete with her... and when she had to go... I asked her innocently enough... her real name... she asked me why... I replied 'so when I dream of you tonight... I will know what to call out....' she answered me 'My real name is Marissa*. (SMILE)...
For the week that followed... I was still trying to hang on to this girl I had been seeing... And there was this woman I met on line that lived IN New Jersey that I was going to meet... until she found out how old I was... then fell off the face of the earth... *her loss*... but I kept trying to keep in contact with the ever mysterious 'Marissa from Canada'... Girlfriend or not... I was going to get to know her... (whether she liked it or not!) LOL!!! SOOO I emailed her.... and emailed her.... and bugged her every time she came on yahoo pager... and bugged her and bugged her... and every lame excuse she got to get off line with me... I heard it!!!
Now...in my mind... I felt as though I was obsessing about her... I was new to being gay... in fact... I hadn't even admitted to myself that I WAS a lesbian.... I was still dating guys that is... four of them actually... I had self classified myself as 'bi' or rather... 'bi-curious' and Miss "Marissa" of Canada... declared that she would never go with a 'straight girl'... (LOL) besides she HAD a live-in girlfriend, right??
SOOO.... I got my shit together and got a picture of myself on line... I emailed it to Marissa. Her response to that was 'How well do you want to get to know me, Christine?'
LOL!!!!!
We hooked up for an 'online date' just to chat... my obsession quickly turned into love... the kind of love no one in the world can prepare you for... she weeded out my 'boy toys' and we met r/t for the first time in January of 1999.
When I stepped through the doors at the Airport... I was dazed and confused... surviving customs for the first time was heart wrenching... and when my eyes rested upon the woman of my desire for the first time... I fell in love all over again... I knew at that point that we were going to be together for the rest of my life...
*GIGGLE*
She didn't even say hello... she just grabbed a hold of me and kissed me for the first time...
And ya know how they say... when you are truly IN LOVE... the fireworks and the mushy feelings... and all the movie clichés they have... it is ALL TRUE... every bit of it... and remember how your mom used to say 'you know... you just know' that is also the truth...
I am patiently awaiting for same sex marriages to be legal... for the legal side of marriage... but as for the spiritual side.... On June 21st 1999 Marissa and I were married.... I have legally change my last name to hers and I am saving to move to Canada... to be a legal citizen...
Sometimes the fairytale story does come true... and sometimes it feels better than the dream ever did.
~c~