I jerk off at least three times a day thinking about sucking dick. I am married, love my wife, love her hips and her curve, love holding her down and fucking her the way she likes, with her arms held wide, her pussy pushing up against me as I ram it in her. Str8 sex is great and I ain't giving it up, but...

I have GOT to find the right guy to turn this cocksucking fantasy into reality. Seeking someone clean like me, maybe another married bi guy, a guy who understands the mindset I got, and respects what's at stake in terms of discretion. Mostly a guy who would start out gentle with a fella who has a bit of the jitters, then let us get more extreme as I adjust.

Eventually I want a hung stud to fuck my face, to make me gag and stretch my jaw. To start I just want to suck, and to train myself to pullit down my throat. But, for down the road, let me tell you about one of my fantasies:

 

I am in a cheap motel, tied up, either belly down on a bed or on a weight bench or over a table. The man who has tied me up will return soon. When he does the first thing he does once he closes and locks the door is put on a ski mask and drop his pants, concealing his face and revealing a thick, long, vein-covered cock, semi-hard, and growing. He walks over in front of me and sets a mysterious bag down on the floor. He turns and reaches into it, his long cock casually slapping against my face as he moves, and pulls out a cock ring. He puts it on and his cock swells even larger, the veins standing out in sharp relief.

He reaches back into the bag and gets some lubricant, Astroglide, and pours generous amounts over his steadily hardening cock. He is messy pouring copious amounts on it, grabbing it with both hands and working it all over the shaft, toying with me by bouncing it in front of my eyes.

Then he reaches down and pulls out the last item in the bag.

It is a small helmet, and I can see that somehow he has attached bicycle handlebars onto both sides of the helmet.

Despite my struggles he puts the helmet on my head and straps it on across my chin. To give me a taste, he grabs the handle bars and gently moves my head left and right, slapping my face with his cock, leaving cold splotches of drying lubricant against my cheeks. Then he takes the lubricant again and gets a big handfull of it, he purposefully works his fingers into my mouth, spreading the Astroglide across my lips, pushing his fingers back into my mouth, sliding the stuff along my tongue. He knows I could bite, but he knows I won't.

My mouth is already dripping with sticky goo, lines of the stuff running through the air between his hand and my mouth as he pulls his hand out and places it squarely on the handlebar that controls the angle and movement of my head. He slowly steps forward, his purple, big cock head coming up against my lips, his cock so engorged with blood it twitches slightly with his heartbeat. The cock ring has made it very big and red, every vein standing out. He pauses only a second, long enough to grunt, "open."

When I comply he pushes forward without mercy, the lubricant easing the way as he pushes every inch down my struggling, shocked throat. I gag and retch violently but he does not stop until every inch is all th way in, his pubic hairs are pressed tightly against my face, and his balls are resting on my chin. He pulls out only a small amount, not enough to let me breath, and fucks my thorat deep, with every stroke pushing his cock as far as he can for four or five strokes.

When he pulls out I gasp for air and retch, drool and bile and lubricant trailing from my mouth. He looks down on me with approval, and then twists the handlebars, angling my head up, and slowly feeds me every inch of his cock, working it down the tautness of my throat created by the angle of my head, until his balls press agint my chin, and beyond, pushing my lips into his crotch. He grunts with satisfaction.

On the next pullout, he doesn't leave my mouth, but pulls until I barely hold him with my tongue, and then thrusts it all the way back in. Fucking my throat as I would my wife's pussy.

"Okay," he says quietly, "Let's find you a nice rhythm so you can breathe. I take quite a while to cum, especially when it's been a while, as it has."

"I don't want you getting tired during the first hour," he snickers as he begins to steadily pump his thick dick in and out of my mouth.