The only way out

i thought it was the only way out
the only way to stop the torment
was to end my own life
i thought it would be so easy
i thought it was the easiest way out
and then i became obsessed
i thought about my death constantly
i made a plan to do away with everything
to leave this world of suffering
i became angry at everyone
even the people that wanted to help
i became traped,
thinking it was impossible to escape
and then i wanted it more then ever
i wanted so badly to be free
i thought i was alone
and no one else was like me
no one else felt the way i did
so i had had enough
i have tryed for so long
and had nothing more to lose
i had only lost my sanity
and was about to lose my life
so during that night in a hysterical fit
i through myself on the bathroom floor
praying for this to be it
there was two sides
one was life and the other was death
and only i could choose
i heard my head pounding against the wall
and i saw red blood comming from my veins
and a total calm fell over me
as i lean against the wall
i see myself in anouther place
with another body
with another mind
and then i realized that that person was me
i had the choice between life and death
and so i chose to live my life
and so i chose to be free

~Shy~ 1