During my life, I have never really attempted to experiment with very harsh illegal drugs. Although I have had the chance to use these substances, I, at one time vowed to myself that I would never get caught up with drugs. The only reason for this was because I saw what drugs did to the people I care about. I saw what drugs did to people and I didn’t want that to happen to me. I saw how the drug crank totally fucked up my big sisters life. My sister used to be a professional break dancer. She was probably the best dancer in the state of NV. She started to feel frustrated that her career wasn’t taking her to the heights she wanted to go. She started on crank to lose weight and for different reasons. She started stripping and now she’s someplace in California prostituting and she is still on drugs.
I haven’t heard from my sister in more than 3 months and I have no idea if she’s ok or not. My big brother got on various types of psychodelic drugs which brought out his schizophrenia. He remained suicidal and now is still suffering from depression and bipolarity. So basically I have witnessed how some forms of drugs can completely take over, even distroy peoples mind, body and soul.
Phen-Fen is said to be a completly natural form of amphetamine that works to help people lose weight. Now get this- I was on this shit for only 5 Days. I took Phen in small amounts ranging from 50-100 milligrams. Now let me first explain to you that I am NOT obese nor am I overweight. I am about 5’7 and before I took Phen, I only weighed 128 lb. I am a very weight conscious person. But my body is more of a muscular form. I lift weights and jog or walk about 2 miles 3 times a week.
I got on Phen for differant reasons. First of all, depression runs on both sides of my family. I was very depressed when I started taking Phen. And anouther reason is because I wanted to be a little thinner. I thought that I would just try losing 10lb. and then get off. But I knew that once I lost the 10lb, while on the drug, I would want to lose anouther 5lb, and by then I would probably be looking anarexic and sick looking. I not only knew that I would become anarexic while taking the drugs, I also knew that I would not be able to get off for any reason.. and I would die. A person with my body size, taking phen-fens and not eating anything or sleeping at night is not going to last long.. and I knew that. I knew that I would only use the drug in overdose for the purpose of getting high. I would kill myself and Phen-Fen was the easiest way of doing so.
The side effects of Phen-Fen, with as little as 50-100 milligrams has the same effects as the drug Speed. The first day when I took Phen-Fen I was totally high. In the morning I took 50 milligrams and about 2 hrs later after taking it I felt as though I could run 5 miles without stopping. My heart beats were rapid and blood pressure very high, even though I remained in a totally relaxed state. In the evening I felt intoxicated as if I had been drinking. I was totally out of it.
The next morning I took anouther 50 milligrams. I was in constant motion and had to be constantly doing something because I absolutly could not be still. Anouther effect of Phen-Fen is horrible memory loss. I would forget things I otherwise wouldn’t. My sister said she was talking to me about how Phen-Fen was bad on the school bus and I didnt even know she was untill she told me later.
The next day, I believe I took 2 tablets of 50 milligrams, I’m not sure if it was that day.. but anyways, the next day I didnt take any that morning and I felt totally suicidal in the evening before I took another one. I thought about running away to Mexico and killing myself. So then I took another 50 miligrams. At night I didnt sleep and in the day I didn’t eat. My thoughts were wack. That night I started to make plans to steal my grandmas car and go to Mexico. I didnt have my lisence yet so I would do it later, I had planned. I was aware that all my thoughts and my perseptions were scizophrenic becuase there was no way I would ever even think about doing something as crazy before. My sister told me that if I would stay on Phen-Fens I would lose that ability to determine whether my thoughts were schizo or not.
So, anyway.. its been 2 days sence I have taken any Phen-Fen. And the only reason for this is because I don’t have any. I know this sounds ironic that I would say this but- its true. Anyway, I’m not going to go on about my addiction (I can’t say that I am totally withdrawn from Phen-Fen or that I will ever do it again, all I’m saying is that it is bad. And if you are young like me: Dont get on this shit.)
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