i feel her like a tide feels the moon
wene its full at night
i feel her touch me
with every word she speaks
and with every breath she takes,
she takes me with her
i begin to respond to her
when she tells me something
or when she whispers in my ear
about her love
i can free myself and be free
wene i am near her
a secret crush..
but these feelings could be an abnormalty
a pain to see something you love so much
to be only surreal
a fantasy that you imagine
when by yourself and feeling lonely
so then i felt ashamed to watch her move
and to want her touch
and then i am scared
to have her too close to me
although i want it so bad
then i cry at nights
because i am not with her
i cry for days
because i retaliated her presence
i dream about her in my sleep
and in the days i fantasize
then i realize
that she is there no more
i try to come to terms with my feelings
i now see that all this time
i wanted everything about her
but i was too afraid to tell her
i was too ashamed of myself to come to her
now i am still left alone
with no one knowing about how i feel
i know that someday
i will feel the same way
about somebody else
and i will look at them the same way
and i will want them the same way
but no one
can ever keep me down
but me.