historyofmelissa

A Short History of Melissa

Hi my name Melissa Zaidy I live in Mississauga Ontario Canada and I am 24 years old. I am a Heterosexual Crossdresser that is very happy being a man but sometimes likes to act and feel like a woman from time to time. I really don't understand why it began but my first memories are when I was 5 years old.

I always went to a babysitters and had a nap at the same time everyday. One day I noticed a pair of little girl's patent leather shoes. Being very curious I put them on and really liked the way they looked.

I did that for I don't know how long always scared of my babysitter walking in and finding me I can still remember that like it was yesterday. From that point on my life changed in so many dramatic ways. I always dressed in secrecy and found that I really liked being a girl. Growing up with this was very difficult because having this fear that I would be found out was terrifying.

As I grew up I suppressed a lot of feminine feelings that every boy/man feels I always tried to be a strong kid growing up. I have had a lot of scary experiences from almost being caught to dressing up for Halloween and being to scared to go out because someone would think something.

Now that I am 24 I feel that this is a very special gift that I was given. Over time it has changed me in my perception of others in the world, you don't realize who you really are or feel like being at certain moments.

I have found that as result of me dressing and always being scared a lot of my memories were not suppressed of my childhood are very clear to me. I remember a lot more then anyone else remembers in my family. I have never told anyone until the past 5 years when I started to tell girlfriends and any females that i could trust.

The time has come in my life that I want to be accepted and have been discovering that part of my life a lot more since moving out of my parents home.

I am the oldest and it could really hurt a lot of people that love me. I have recently told my sister and she accepted it very well. I told my mom and all she had to say "that explains a lot all the girls clothes hidden in your closet".

I feel that you live for the day until you get your reward when you will pass on into a greater place. I feel that this gift that i was given is going to be part of what is yet to come and will help me in the end then hurt me. This gift has made me look at woman with total respect and that is why I am always there for my girlfriends it has given me a side compassion to help people

I find that it has changed my life for the better.

I have discovered a side to my life that only selected amounts of people have been given. We all need to stick together. I would have gone off the deep end and could have missed something great. I really have discovered alot about myself as a person in my art i look at the world through different views and i have been doing a lot of abstract painting to express this.

A SPECIAL MESSAGE TO FRIENDS & ACQUAINTANCES

LOVE MELISSA