Something Personal
Well, I'm from Holland and I love to crossdress as you might have guessed. I have these feelings for years now. It all started when i was about 13 years old. I would get me a nice dress from my sister and hide in a closet where I could put it on. This was all very exciting to me as there was a chance of getting found.
I remember that when I had to take a shower I would put on some panties and tights from my sister, at our home it was normal to lock the door of the bathroom. So, it was safe to do this.
The only thing was to put it all back, but I was never caught. As I felt uneasy about it, I tucked it all away.
When I started living on my own, all these old feelings started to come back. At first I couldn't place them and felt very ashamed. I bought myself a pair of tights and that was it. At the same time i noticed that I was attracted to sm & bd. It was all very confusing for me. I tried to get in touch with people who had the same feelings, but i didn't now how to do this. The result was, i put all these toughts aside again.
However, the feelings never went away and came back. This was the moment I met my girlfriend. I told her about my SM & BD feelings, but at first she laughed, thinking it was a joke. But I was serious, I told her I even went to meetings of people with the same interest.
" OK " , she said I will go with you. That's how it all began. My girlfriend however doesn't have these feelings, but she understands them. Now my feelings of crossdressing came back too and I told her this. She all understands it, as long as she is not really
confronted with them. So I can dress up when she is gone. But I saw some light in the darkness. A few weeks ago she bought a dress when we were shopping, and she suggested to share it with me. We do have about the same size.
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