Differently than others I hate to talk about myself....

Ok, let's get started...

I saw the light of the world on July 20th 1970 (you have to figure out for yourself how old I am, but that may surely not soo hard...., right?) in Berlin-Charlottenburg. Yes, I am an original citizen of Berlin, but I don't speak this (I apologize already times in advance) terrible "Berlin-backyard-dialect", which is always used for the Idiots in german films and tv-series...:-))) In the course of the years I developed quite well, for my taste somewhat to well, i.e. in my worst times I brought a combat weight of over 125kg on the balance and that by a height of 1,77m.  

Thank God I am a very emotional human being. What does that mean??? 

Well, because of stress in the office and an unfortunate loving I lost  25kg within 3 months.

When I noticed, that I felt far better, I decided to continue and now I'm downt to approx. 82kg. But I do not want to bore you with my figure.... You can see for yourself how I look now on the picture-site...:-)))) Well, in 1992/3 I dared finally my Coming Out... I already knew for a while that I'm gay , however I could not deal with at that time. To the disappointment of my friend at that time, with whom I was together since 1989. Ok, my family and my friends (those, which I call still friends today) reacted as far as possible positively . No I must correct myself. My family has reacted throughout positively.

My Mom was sooo sweet!!!!

I had a little fight with my friend on one evening (the usual topic that  I don't live openly gay)... At one point I threw him out of my apartment and said that I don't want to see him anytime or anymore... (why are gays always so theatrical???) I drunk the 2 bottles of wine, which I bought us for the weekend, all alone... LOL  After I had already 1.5 bottles drunken my Mom called... Of course I was not in the best mood and I had already achieved the 8th degree of self compassion, as she began to drill... (like mothers allways do.... am I right?? (Mom, if you read this: don't be to angry)) And they can't stop...

Thus, she asked again and again what happened: "I notice, there is something depressing you... talk to me..." Half an hour later she had soft-knocked me and I only said: "Yep, there is something wrong, but I don't want to talk about it on the phone..." But like mothers are, she didn't stoped.... So I outed myself to her on the phone... For a few seconds nobody sayed a word, and then - here we go - she apologized with me... She had suspected it all the time and she talked to her husband, but she didn't know how to talk to me....

She apologized to me, because SHE didn't dare and I had to carry this "secret" therefore so long with me... I find, that is so far the best reaction, which I ever heard of..... 

Well, my friend had there a different reaction with his parents... Those threw him out of the house with 16 and told him that they don't have a son anymore... But that is another long and sad story........... 

Yes, now again to me... I am.a learned accountant... It's true: The bookkeeping and all this mathematics always was fun for me. Anyhow I had an impudent luck, as I got the chance to change into the IT industry....and so I work since over 8 years as system administrator and for 4 years as a system Analyst with emphasis in Oracle databases, Unix, NT, Sun.....

I love reading, spend to much time in front of the computer, love fast cars, motorcicles and Inline-Skates in summer, go sometimes to the gym, like cooking, love Star-Trek (esp. Voyager), meeting with friends, listen to music (all kinds of, except Techno), clubbing, my cat and finally I'm a big Canada-fan.

From my outside appearance you can make yourself a picture... The hair colour changes sometimes... however the eyes always remains green...:-)))) 

So, if you still think you need more details you have to send me an email.

Salut

            Erik