I’m not afraid to lie
to get what I want

I’m not afraid to try
to catch someone’s eye
I’m not afraid to live
I have so much to give

I’m not afraid to say “I love you”
or to be in love with you
I’m not afraid to cry
when I have no reason why
I’m not afraid of rejection,
doubt or disparity
finding true love is such a rarity

I’m not afraid to open my heart
to take a chance it’ll get ripped apart
I’m not afraid of success
or to celebrate in excess
I’m not afraid to fail
when my attempts are to no avail
because I know I’ve tried my best

I’m not afraid to show my weakness
in times of grief and stress
when life is too much
I’m not afraid to give up
I look to my soul and sigh
I’m not afraid to die
I’m not afraid of pain
I’ve endured it time and time again
I’m not afraid to admit I’m gay
I don’t care what people say
I’m not afraid to be called a homo
gay life is all I know
I’m not afraid to find someone new
especially when I’m bored with you
when the novelty is gone
and I realize you’re not the one

I’m not afraid to frequent a gay bar
but good looks only go so far
I’m not afraid to be loud and proud
dancing half naked in front of a crowd
I’m not afraid of a one night stand
but sometimes things don’t go quite as planned

I’m not afraid to jack off to a magazine
and take pleasure in the things I’ve seen
I’m not afraid to cruise the park
late at night after dark

I’m not afraid to masturbate in
front of strangers
or to urinate in the streets
to fuck, to suck, to proposition
to get someone in the sheets

I’m not afraid to lose my mind
and toss my sanity far behind
I’m not afraid to question life
when my days are filled with strife

I’m not afraid to say “fuck off”
to people that piss me off
I’m not afraid to start a fight
my insults can last all night
I’m not afraid of confrontation
only regret and lamentation

I’m not afraid to walk in front of a moving car
or to hit someone with a bat, club or crowbar
sometimes even I go too far
but if being bad was all I ever had
I’d be glad not sad
because in life, it isn’t always good
and some times I don’t behave the way I should

this is what I think
when I’ve had too much to drink