the loneliness enshrouds me in desperate despair
enveloping me like the white stained sheets
wrapped so taughtly around my naked body

sweat pooling forth from my flesh
accompanied by a sickly sweet scent
reminiscent of stagnance in water

my mouth parched as a barren desert
leaving behind a coppery aftertaste
my tongue a twisted entanglement

my mind an aberrant cognizance
drowning in a sea of abstraction
seeking a glimpse of halcyonic lucidity

at night I lay coiled in a fetal position
poised in restless vigilance
the sheets pulled over my head

my bed once a sanctuary
no longer shelters me from the unsettled anxiety
or the abandonment that haunts me

each night I listen for the sound of his breath
craving the emanating warmth of his body
wanting the unassuming caress of his hand

when he is not there, insomnia masquerades as my lover
enslaving me in troubled unease
constantly tormenting me with wakefulness