Julia Simmons
My Story
There's probably nothing
unique here - no doubt many TV/CDs will tell a similar story. At about the age
of 12 curiosity prompted me to try on my mothers undies and dresses .. and it
felt good. This was in the early 1960s, when boned corsets were tight, bras
were firm and there were plenty of suspenders to fasten up. After a couple of
years I had progressed on to wearing her makeup. Naturally I was confused, and
thought I was the only one in the world doing this, but I couldn't stop as it
was such a big turn-on. A few times I ventured out dressed in the evening when
my parents were out, walking around the local streets in the dark. Once my
mother caught me dressed, and although horrified, didn't know what to make of it
any more than I did.
I didn't get the chance to dress much during college, but at least I
started reading about TVism. For a while I was a member of the Beaumont
Society, and got a lot of reassurance from realising how many of us there are.
Of course (how many of us do this ?) I went and married a woman who could
never accept CDing. I never even raised the subject with her, so for nearly 20
years I was a secret dresser, doing it when she was out and taking a few photos
of myself. I've always been attracted to the sexy, glamourous side of being a
woman - though I don't kid myself that this is a realistic picture of most
womens lives. Over the years I've learned to buy myself dresses and lingerie
and have progressed from my original terror at going this to my present state
of severe embarassment.
Eventually the marriage broke up for reasons unconnected with TVism. For
a while I lived on my own, and dressed almost continuously at home, often
spending entire weekends dressed. It was bliss ! (but lonely). First thing
Friday evening it was bath, lotion, scent, makeup and then dress. And then
think about getting myself something to eat. All weekend I was a woman until I
went to bed Sunday evenings in my little frilly nightie. All this time I had
my makeup spread out, a wardrobe full of dresses and drawers of lingerie. The
garden of the little house was more or less hidden from public view, though I
was turned on by the thought that passers by could probably just make out the
figure of a woman through the hedge. Sometimes I would go out dressed to
TV/CD meetings, but was (and still am) self conscious about my height.
A couple of years ago I met Judi, to whom I am now married. She is
wonderful, and can accept my CDing within reasonably wide limits. She sees that
this is something internal to me, and that when I am dressed I am excited, a bit
distracted and not always ideal company.
Judi herself is a sexy person, can be submissive and is interested in mild
exhibitionism and bondage. Perhaps it's because she's conscious of the power of
dress and display that she can understand TVism. For example, sometimes when
we go to our favourite restaurant she wears her thin silk Chinese dress with
slits up the sides. Her stocking tops and suspenders show as we walk down the
street, which embarasses and excites us both. She only gets unhappy if I get
too self absorbed and there are certain things she won't do while I am Julia.
Julia has two distinct moods. Often she wants to be a neat, attractive
career woman, and tries to dress for the office or a smart social occasion.
She wants nothing more than to be accepted as a woman. Other times she feels
so sexy, and dresses like a tart. No skirt can be too short, no bra too
uplift, no waist too pulled in ... and she always wears 4" spiky heels.
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