Let me tell you a little about myself. I am 49, 5'-10.5" and a 12/14
who a couple of years ago was an 18+. In the past few years I
have lost over 50 pounds, and I must say it has been
the best thing I have ever done for myself. My weakness are shopping
(of course!!), clothes, shopping, and feeling femme. I drink socially and
don't smoke. I stay fit, and have a very challenging professional job.
My second wife is sort of accepting, considering other's situations, I
can't complain.
My first memories of being different were at 5 or so when I had a blanket
I called my slip. It had two little straps of the silky stuff. My mother
chastised me for having girls clothes. During my school years I spent many
an hour in my sister's and mother's clothes and playing with dolls. I preferred
to play with the girls in girl roles. I discovered the Christine Jorgensen
story at age 11, and was convinced I was a TS. I prayed at night to wake
up a girl. I hated sports, liked girly things, was considered a sissy and
was constantly harassed. Life got a little better in high school as I learned
to adapt and suppress my feminine ways. Then I spent 5 years in college.
For 5 years I worked hours on end, rarely having time to myself, but when
I did, I dressed. School was very time consuming, especially the early
years. My first love was a 19 y.o. girl - and I wound up married
before a year was out. Throughout school I dressed, and read about it constantly.
I knew where every book on any TV/TS related subject was in the library.
After the marriage, the exposure to clothes and make-up flipped a big switch.
I started dressing quite often, using make-up regularly, gradually acquiring
my own things. One day my new wife found my treasures. She thought they
were another woman's, and found little relief in my happily telling her
they were mine. I promised to quit, and threw away the clothes, only to
retrieve them the very next morning from the dumpster. She refused to discuss
the subject, and we coexisted for the final three years, moving to the
deep south right after the discovery. We went to counseling, but only to
say we tried. During this time she discovered she was bi-sexual and her
circle of friends became mostly gay. We constantly had gays at our house
and she frequented the local gay bar. She left me for another woman, a
real woman. I had the opportunity to meet several drag queens at the local
gay bar, seeing alot of good "T" shows. The experience finally cleared
up my confusion, I learned I was transgendered, enjoyed being with sympathetic
or feminine people, and most of all -enjoyed being a woman.
The divorce finally brought Anna Renee out for good. I discovered there were
others and got into writing. I went to a few meetings and met several other
TVs and TSs. 13 years ago, I remarried, this time telling my future wife
about Anna soon after we met. She was shocked at first, but became accepting.
Over the years this acceptance has declined, and I am sure she wishes Anna could go away.
I have met several sisters around the country, but very few in here. I
love my job, and travel a good bit. When traveling, I usually go out to
eat or shopping, dressed of course. I wish I could spend more
time being Anna. It is very lonely when your wife tries to
accept but just can't, and there are no kindred souls in this small town.
I go to Atlanta to shop, go to meetings and visit with friends on
occasion, so I can just be myself.
About my dressing likes and dislikes. Dressing sexy is fun, but I usually
try to look business-like. My usual attire is dresses, skirts and blouses,
jackets, low heels and moderate length wigs. I have been successful passing.
I don't think I can go just anywhere, but that does not bother me. Anyway,
I like to dress fully when I "become". I love the feel of pantyhose and
especially slips and camisoles. I also adore heels. When out, I wear them
no higher than 2-1/2" since most of the women I observe rarely have them
higher. Putting on make-up is a wonderful experience, curling up on the
counter and primping for a long time......mmmm. As you may realize, being
a woman has many, many benefits.
The last step of my transformation is always the wig. I have several, but
favor one more than others depending on my mood. Feeling the hair on my
bare shoulders is wonderful. Putting the wig on seems to totally change
my frame of mind. If I am not going out, I have my "casual" clothes
such as T-shirt and jeans, nighties, and camisoles (my favorite!!).
You might find me hanging around in bra, T-shirt and jeans with no make-up
on. Being a woman is a state of mind for me more that seems to be
reinforced by the clothing. I can be Anna Renee when completely endrab
with a flip of a little mental switch.
I would sincerely love to write and perhaps meet you! Of course I will
reply to any Email very quickly. Rest assured I will respect your security,
and I am sure you will respect mine. I am very open minded, discreet, and
love to talk about anything and everything. I sincerely hope we can become
friends and help each other.