Recovering

Buffy: "Usually, yeah, but he's right. I mean, I think, maybe in the long run he's right."
Willow: "Yeah, I think he is. I mean, I tried to hope for the best, but...I'm sorry. It must be horrible."
Buffy: "I think horrible is still coming. Right now, it's worse. Right now I'm just trying to keep from dying...I can't breathe, Will. I feel like I can't breathe."
--"Prom", Buffy the Vampire Slayer

"Are you okay?"
"No, not really. But I will be."
--"Center Stage"

I wonder if the most difficult thing right now is that I don't know how to feel about anything. I guess it comes down to my head versus my heart in a game of tug-of-war and every time one side's about to win, the other one suddenly gets a burst of strength and starts fighting back. I guess I am taking a little space, so my insides can battle without leaving you or our relationship a casualty.