In The End

I've had a revelation. I can't do this anymore. But I don't know what to do.

It starts with one thing
I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
keep that in mind
I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know
Time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It's so unreal
Didn't look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on, but didn't even know
Wasted it all just to watch you go
I kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

Scratch that. I know what I need to do. But this is such bad timing. Plus I don't know how to do it.

And I'm left in the wake of the mistake / slow to react

I can only say so much here because too many people see this and I'm not sure if a certain person has seen my website.

...so it's better this way, I said
having seen this place before
where everything we said and did
hurts us all the more
it's just that we stayed, too long
in the same old sickly skin...

I can't do this anymore. And I know a whole bunch of you are going to assume that this is in direct relation to a certain former relationship of mine, but it's not. It has nothing to do with her. I realize I'm not saying much right now, but I will...sometime later...

On a separate note, I think I can truthfully say, "It's not you, it's me." :-(