Not Dead Yet

Thursday, June 29, 2006 (9:08pm)

"Bring out your dead! Bring out your dead!"
"Here's one."
"I'm not dead!"
"Here, he says he's not dead!"
"Yes, he is."
"I'm getting better."

Long time, no see! Really, all I want to do with this entry is to update anyone who's still reading on my life. So let's see...

Work

I'm still working at the bookstore, but I've been the Frontlist Lead since January of 2005. It's very hard work and usually I enjoy it. Management still drives me up a wall. In fact, more so these days, because the managers I loved have all left. There are some new managers who I like--In fact, my roommate is one of them--but it's not the same.

I'm not late anymore...well, not like I used to be. As the Frontlist Lead, I work a regular schedule with mostly normal hours. Monday through Thursday, I work 7-3:30 and on Saturdays, I usually work 12:30-9. This way, I can keep my internal clock semi-functional. However, the damage has been done and I will never be promoted to Department Manager. They lie to me (and possibly themselves) and tell me that I'm on the Store Manager's talent bench and she really likes me and that if there was the position, then they could promote me. It's all bullsh** and I don't really care. This store is not the end road for me, it's just a place to earn enough to live (barely) until I can go to business school. Speaking of which...

School

I still want my M.B.A., but I'm applying to Bentley College in Waltham, MA with hopes of focusing on Marketing. I retook the GMAT and went from 490 to 500, which isn't great, but it's better. I've taken a couple business classes at Middlesex Community College in Bedford, MA and I've done well.

Home and Family

I finally moved out of my parents house last July and went about 10 minutes down the road. :-) But I'm in the next town over and I live with my friend Kelly who I met at the store. (In fact, she's been promoted and she's my Department Manager too.) We get along well and plus now that I don't see my parents much, I get along much better with them also.

My grandmother is in an assisted living facility up in Nashua and I've started visiting her every Monday after work. She was all alone in Washington (state, not DC) after Grandpa died and she was just too far away. So the family convinced her to move closer to us so we can look after her better. I still miss Grandpa and I get a little misty whenever I think of him, but it's good to see Grandma so often. It helps.

The last aspect of family would involve my little brother. Okay, so he's 25 and not little anymore...details! Anyway, he just got engaged to his girlfriend Ashley and I really like her (even if she's not as into Monty Python and Star Wars as she should be). I met her at Jared's grad school commencement last year or the year before. (I forget when he actually graduated.) Anyway, so a big congrats to my brother!!!

Love Life

Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha!!!!

Sorry, that reaction's instinctive. In any case, the love life is mostly non-existant. I've stayed single since Jamie and I broke up the last time and it's been good. I've had 2 years with no drama, or at least not much drama. It's been heavenly, no offense to the ex-gf intended, since the drama didn't all originate with her. Because really, the reason my life's been drama free, is because I haven't had a love life to get dramatic about. And that's okay with me. In fact, I wouldn't trade it in for anything. Plus, Laura and I have become good friends and we swing dance every month (when we remember) from October through June. But yeah, basically, I choose to live vicariously through other people's love lives. So until I feel ready to actually have a romantic relationship, I'm enjoying my friends. They are what really make my life worth living and I love each and everyone of them. I had an interesting AIM conversation with Heather recently in this regard. (I took out my comments and her comments that weren't necessary to understand the conversation, but otherwise didn't alter her posts.)

Heather: you have many many many who love you for who you are and accept you, althoug not all do and you wish some that didn't would
Heather: that hurts
Heather: alot
Heather: there is someon in you life right now, a friend who is very positive for you
Heather: keep them close
Heather: they will prove to be a great friend in upcoming hard times
Heather: things will become easier with time for you

As you can see, my friends love me so much that a love life isn't necessary to fill any void in my life. I love my friends. Y'all rock.

So yeah, I'm actually happy. Okay, I hate my job, but it didn't make me cry today, so it's the best Thursday I've had in three weeks. And it's only the job part of my life that sucks, which describes a lot of people's lives. I wish I could promise to post again soon, but that never happens. So don't hold your breath, even if you look good in blue. :-D

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