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It's almost time for Tony to pick me up. I spent most of the day
doing yard work. Raking leaves and mowing the lawn (again!). I
thought about the party and how we should act. I'll talk with Tony on
the way there. I figured we should act like two straight friends,
until we figured out what was going on. Even if things are OK, we
should still stay, low-key. I looked at a map to see how to get to
the party. Since Tony was always driving us, I thought I would at
least make it easier to get there.
Tony arrived around 7:40. A little late, but it's probably not good
to be the first ones at a party. I told Tony my ideas about how
to act at the party. He agreed.
When we got there, the whole block was full of parked cars, so we had
to walk a block from where we parked. As we walked up to the large
white two story house, we could hear loud music playing. Tony rang
the door-bell. I hung back.
The door opened with a blast of sound coming out. A tall skinny
guy with medium length black hair, looked at us and scowled.
"Yes? This is a closed party," he said, glaring at us.
Tony nodded, "We were invited by Dave."
"Dave who?"
"Dave Harper."
"Oh. What's your names?"
"Tony and Ben"
"Just a moment," he said, and he closed the door.
"Hopefully Dave is here by now," Tony said to me.
I nodded. This is starting to feel creepy though.
The door opened after about a minute. Dave was there.
"Tony, Ben, come on in," he said.
"This is Dennis," he said, pointing to the tall skinny guy who had
first opened the door.
"Nice to meet you," we said.
He kind of smirked back, "Nice to meet you two too.
"I'll let you tell them the rules," he said to Dave. "Have fun," he
said to us, and he disappeared into the dimly lit crowd of people
dancing.
A girl showed up at Dave's side, and grabbed his arm.
"Oh, this is Patty," he said. "Patty, this it Tony and Ben."
We nodded at her.
"Let's go into the kitchen. It's quieter and you can get something to
drink there."
Dave lead us around the edge the crowd. I followed behind Tony.
On the way there, I said, "Dave's got a girlfriend?" I was shocked.
He shrugged. I guess he's not surprised.
The kitchen had a swinging door, so it was a lot quieter. There was
one other couple in the kitchen, which was huge. Dave went to a small
table and the four of us sat down there.
"I'm glad you guys could make it," Dave started.
I just smiled and nodded.
"What's this all about?" asked Tony. I chuckled inside, my always
direct boyfriend.
"First the rules," Dave smiled. "You can go most anywhere on the first
floor of the house. You've seen the living room where the loud stuff
goes. Then there's the family room, down the hall. It's quieter for,
well, quiet activities. Upstairs is off-limits, unless you get
permission directly from Dennis." He give us a wink.
Oh, I'm sure, I'm thinking. "Where are the adults," I ask.
Dave frowns. "Dennis's Dad is divorced. This is his house. So long
as people follow the rules, and don't trash the place, then it's OK
with him to throw these parties. His Dad does show up sometimes
though.
"There's a few more rules. No alcohol, or other drugs. Also only
couples are invited. Usually that means male and female, but you guys
are an exception."
I felt my face get red. I looked at Patty to see her reaction to what
Dave revealed about us. "Are we the only ones?" I asked.
"No, there's a couple of girls, who are gay, here," Patty said to me.
"Oh, yeah," Dave continued, "there's no telling anyone about what goes
on here, or you won't be invited back. Also if there are any problems
with people breaking the rules, Dennis calls the cops, and the party
is over."
"I don't understand. Why be so up-tight," said Tony. I nodded.
"Well," Patty said, "mainly it's a place for couples to party, away
from the drunk single guys that usually makes other parties so tense."
"Why were you so insistent that we come here?" I asked Dave.
"Well, people are still talking about Tony being gay, and I've
overheard some guys, in the gym, talking about beating him up."
I felt a twinge of fear. Tony just shrugged.
Dave continued, "I think it's just talk, but after talking to Patty,
she said it could help if more open-minded people, like those here,
could meet you. Maybe they can help keep things quiet about you two,
or at least keep other's from over-reacting."
For some reason I don't think this is a good idea, but I'm not sure
why. Hmm, we're essentially letting a bunch of people, who we don't
know, know that we are gay. How do we know they're open minded? Ah,
that's the problem.
"How do we know the people here are open-minded?" I asked.
Dave and Patty looked at each other. Dave shrugged. Great! They're
not sure. I touched Tony's arm to get his attention.
"Maybe we should leave," I whispered to Tony. "We don't know how
accepting everyone is here."
I think Patty heard part of what I whispered. She looked at me and
said, "We can talk to Sue and Jan. Maybe they can let us know if
they've had any problems since coming to these parties."
So we all got up and headed back into the living room. The music was
booming now. The room was dark enough so that it was hard to see
people's faces on the other side of the room. As Tony and I passed by
some people, we got a few stares. It looks like most everyone is
paired up male/female, so we must stand out. Great! There must be
some people talking in more same-sex groups. There's a group of guys
over to the right, and there's some girls talking ahead. Whew.
They're looking only because we're new here. Patty stopped at a
stuffed chair on the other side of the room. A girl was sitting in
the lap of another girl. Wow! The girl in the chair had short blond
hair, while the other girl in her lap had shoulder length brown hair.
They were looking at each other and talking, when Patty walked up.
They both looked at her, and cupped their ears. Patty pointed to us.
They nodded and got up.
"This is Tony and Ben," I barely heard her say.
"This is Sue," she said pointing to the blond girl, "and this is Jan."
"Hi I'm Tony."
"Hi, nice to meet you," I said, smiling at both of them.
They both gave us a hug. Wow. That's nice.
"Finally, someone else who can take the pressure off of us," said the
blond girl. What was her name? Ah, Sue. Pressure? That doesn't
sound good.
"Actually that's what they were wondering about. Have you had more
problems since coming here?" Patty asked.
"No. I was kidding about the pressure. It's just that we stand out
in this group, so it'll just be nice to have some company. Everyone
is really nice to us, they just aren't sure what to say to us," said
Sue, shrugging.
"Why don't we sit down," she suggested.
They sat down in the chair again with Jan on Sue's lap. Tony sat down
on the couch next to the chair. He tried to pull me into his lap. No
way, Tony. I sat down beside him.
Sue smiled at me, but shook her head slightly.
Patty sat next to me and Dave next to her.
"I would not have told Patty to invite you two, if we did have
problems," Sue explained. "It's nice to be at a party, sort of in
public, and be able to just hug, with-out getting harassed."
Yeah, I can relate to that, so I nodded. Tony put his arm around
me and hugged me. I pulled back a little. Sigh, nice in theory.
Old habits die hard.
"When did you two start coming to these parties?" Tony asked.
"The middle of summer," said Jan.
"This is our fourth party. During the school year, there's only one
party a month. But during the summer there could be two or three a
month," said Sue.
I was having a hard time hearing them with the loud music, so I sat
back against Tony's arm. He rubbed my shoulder. I looked around. No
one was really looking at us, so I relaxed into him a bit as I turned
to look at Patty and Dave.
"Nice party," I said, almost yelling to Patty, "A little loud though."
She nodded, "The family room is much quieter. People don't talk much
in there though."
I nodded and smiled back at her joke.
"So where did you and Dave meet?" I asked.
"We're both in the orchestra. About two weeks ago, he finally caught
my eye, and he asked me out."
"What instrument do you play?"
"The clarinet."
I nodded. A dead-end topic for me. I like listening to classical
music, but I know nothing about playing it.
Dave said something to Patty. They talked for a while. I just sort of
spaced out and listened to the music and watched the people dancing.
It was just too loud to carry on a conversation, unless you were right
next to the person you were talking to.
A quiet slow piece of music came on. The gay girls got up and
suggested we all dance. The others got up too. I stayed seated.
"Come on Ben," Tony grinned, and grabbed my hand. I pulled back,
shaking my head but smiling. The more talkative girl, Sue, grabbed my
other hand and they pulled me up.
"OK, OK," I said.
Tony hugged me and we, started slow dancing. Thank goodness he wasn't
doing the bump and grind into me! I looked around and saw a number of
stares. No frowns, but a few raised eyebrows.
The next piece was fast.
"You ready?" Tony asked. Huh, Oh. He had moved away, and his hand
slid down my arm till it caught my hand, then he pulled me to him with
a twist, so that I spun up to him with his arm around me. Oh gee,
here we go! The gay girls grinned at us and started swing dancing
too.
Now people are really looking at us! OK, at the end of this song, I'm
quitting. Way to go Tony! I thought we were going to stay low-key!
The music changed. I stopped and told Tony that I was thirsty. I
headed for the kitchen. Whew, he followed. Dave and Patty followed
too.
We got more pop from the fridge. We talked to another couple and with
Dave and Patty.
"I don't believe you two are really gay," said the guy, "You act
straight."
"Didn't you see us dancing together?" I asked.
"No." he shrugged.
Dave grins. "So prove it Ben!"
Tony wasn't paying attention, because he was talking to Patty and the
guy's girlfriend. They were talking about rock groups that they
liked.
I waited for a pause. Then I whispered in Tony's ear.
"I want you to kiss me."
He looked surprised. "What, here?"
I nodded towards the other guy looking at us. "Now."
He glanced at the others, then he grinned back at me. "OK." I put my
arms up around his neck. He started slow, well for about five
seconds. Then he went in deep. I tried to block him with my tongue,
but he was insistent, so I let him. He hit the spot and I pushed into
him. When the wave passed, I pulled back, but he put his hand behind
my neck and pushed me back up to him. I didn't respond as much this
time, because I heard some people, yelling out "wow, you got to see
this!"
When he stopped I was still trembling and I held onto him to stay
standing. I hid my face into his chest away from the people in the
kitchen, but I saw there were a number of people looking in from the
living room at us. Most were smiling and some were clapping their
hands.
"Wow Tony! I've never seen a kiss like that before," said Patty.
"It's not me," said Tony, "he's the hot one!"
I hugged him sharply. Quiet Tony, don't tell them everything! I want
to be alone with him. This is too embarrassing. What was I thinking!
I guess dancing with Tony loosened me up.
Dave was laughing. "Now do you believe they're gay?" he said to the
guy who questioned me.
I pulled away, but still hung onto Tony. "Can we go sit down?"
"Sure Ben."
"We're going to go relax," Tony said to the others. He turned and
took my hand to lead me out of the kitchen.
"Have fun relaxing guys," Dave said. Oh brother, I rolled my
eyes and looked at Patty. She nodded and slugged his arm. Hee, hee,
she figured out what I was thinking.
Tony took us through the dancing crowd in the living room. I tried to
let go of his hand but he wouldn't let me. He took us to the family
room, which was even dimmer than the living room. I waited for my
eyes to adjust. There wasn't much space left. The two couches were
full. All the chairs were full. There were two couples stretched out
on the floor. Tony found an empty spot, on the floor, next to one of
the couches. He sat down, then pulled me onto his lap. The couple
near us stopped to look at us. I froze. They smiled at us and
nodded, before they started making out some more, ignoring us.
Tony rubbed my back. I looked at him. It felt like ages since I'd
been able to look into his beautiful brown eyes. I sighed. He feels
so good.
"I love you Tony," I whispered into his ear. I put my hand on his
chest and felt his nice firm pec muscles.
"I love you too Ben," he said as he rubbed my back and hugged me
closer to him. I just stayed there with my nose in his neck. My ears
were still ringing from the loud music. This was so nice and relaxing
after all that intense stuff in the other room.
"You ready for another kiss," he asked.
I pulled back to look into his eyes again. I nodded and stroked his
cheek and moved my fingers through his dark curly hair. He kissed so
softly this time. He moved his hands over my back and chest. I
shivered. He broke the kiss and pulled back to look at me. We just
grinned at each other, stroking our fingers through each other's hair.
Tony squirmed under me.
"Am I too heavy?" I asked.
"Not yet, but we could shift around."
"OK." What did he have in mind? He slide me over to the floor and laid
down onto me. Mmm, this feels good. He put his hands on either
side of my face.
"You ready?" he asked.
"I don't know Tony," I said. I wasn't ready to let loose here. The
kitchen scene was almost too much. He kissed my lips and moved his
tongue along them. He pulled back. I opened my eyes to look at him.
He was studying my reaction. I smiled. So he continued. I felt
myself getting hard. He pressed against me there. Then he went in
deep with the kiss. I was responding, but I didn't want to do that
here! I tried to turn away, but he held me there. I tried to shove
him off of me but he wouldn't move. Stop Tony!
I hit him on his back a little. Then I hit hard. He stopped.
"What, the... Ben!" he sounded angry and was quickly moving off of
me. I hung onto him, even though I was crying, trying to be quiet so
others wouldn't hear. He rolled over so I ended up on top of him. I
slid up so I could whisper in his ear. I took a deep breath to get
control. His hands were at his sides. Oh crap, I can smell his anger
and feel him tense under me. I like him to be aggressive with me, but
it's too embarrassing.
"I'm sorry Tony, it's too embarrassing for me here."
"When won't it be embarrassing Ben!" he said angrily.
"I'm sorry." I could feel him becoming more distant. I've got to
make love to him soon. He's going crazy. And I don't want to loose
him. But not here. I got control pretty quickly, because he was just
laying there.
"I have to go to the bathroom," he said to me coolly. I got off of
him. He didn't even look at me when he got up and walked out of the
room. I scooted back to the wall and next to the side of the couch.
I put my arms around knees and put my head on my knees. Don't cry,
don't cry, hold it down. Whew. I held it in. I tried to not think.
A number of minutes passed. I listened to the music and the couples
making out around me.
"Are you OK Ben," a girl's voice said. I looked up and saw Patty.
She sat down beside me. "I saw Tony. He looked, ang..., uh upset,"
she said.
I nodded. She tentatively reached out to rub my shoulder.
"Are you gay," I asked her. That just popped into my head.
She shrugged. "I guess some would say I'm bi." She rubbed my back.
"You want to talk?" she asked quietly.
"Sure." I collected myself. OK not too much detail. I don't really
know her. I looked at her.
"What was Tony upset about?" she asked.
"Well we were kissing and it was too intense for me, but he wouldn't
stop, so I hit him. Not hard, but..." I'm always stopping him. I
looked away, then looked back and shrugged.
She nodded, "That kiss in the kitchen looked plenty intense. You left
pretty quick. Was it embarrassing?"
I nodded, "He always wants to do more and I'm always stopping him."
"But why? Dave's said that Tony only talks about you when they talk.
He told Dave that he's really in love with you."
"I guess I'm afraid that's all we'll do, once we start."
She laughed. "I'm sure! I've known guys who say they would like to
make love all night. They might last ten minutes, if they really try."
"Bet I could last an hour," I smiled.
She rolled her eyes. "You guys are hopeless!
"Well I can understand why you wouldn't want him to do more than
kissing in here," she said.
I nodded. She doesn't need to know more.
"But that's all they were doing," said the girl at the end of the
couch. "I was looking, sorry," she said to me.
I just nodded at her and shrugged, but I felt my face flush.
Patty was giving me a surprised look. I could tell she was getting
ready to probe deeper. I needed to change the subject. I moved
closer to Patty, away from the girl on the couch.
"Do I know you from somewhere? You look familiar to me," I asked.
She laughed, "I wondered if you had noticed. In the lunch yard quad,
you would sit near where Jan, Sue, and I would usually sit."
"Oh, now I remember the three of you! Everyone looks so different
here."
"We were wondering what was going on with you and Tony. He showed up
one day, then the next week he's yelling at you. We realized then,
that you both were probably gay, but it looked like we were seeing the
end of your relationship. We wanted to talk to you, but when you
showed up again at lunch, you seemed to not want anyone to approach
you. Then I met Dave and he told me about you and Tony. That's when
I said he needed to invite you two here, because Jan and Sue have told
me, many times, how lonely it can be."
"Wow! That's amazing," I said. "When you first saw Tony, that's when
he asked me out."
"Ah," she said.
"How old are you?" I asked.
"18"
"So you like younger guys?"
"Oh, Dave?" she leaned over and whispered, "I think it's just sex
between me and Dave." She sat back. "He's sweet, but he's not ready
to commit to anyone."
I nodded sadly and looked away.
"He hurt you?"
"Huh?" I said, looking back at her. What does she know?
"Dave told me that he fooled around with you and Tony. It's OK with
me."
I relaxed. "He was my first."
"Ah, so that's why there's tension between you two."
We sat quietly for a few minutes. Amazing. There was a gay couple,
right next to me all those times at lunch, and I never noticed. All
of this talking about relationships and Tony was making me warm.
Where's Tony? Has he left me here?
"Did you see where Tony went?" I asked.
"He was talking with me and Dave. That's why I came to you. He's
probably still talking to Dave."
"I hope he doesn't leave me here."
"I don't think that'll happen. He looked more hurt than angry," she
said.
"I was thinking about your holding back," she said. "Could it be more
than what you said?"
More? I shrugged. "I don't know. Sex isn't love."
"That's true, but sex can show how much you care about someone."
"But what if he doesn't care as much back?"
"Then you'll at least know, and go from there."
"Actually, I think I'm afraid of scaring him off by opening up too
much."
"Really?" she said. "I think you're afraid to take a chance, and let
him get closer to you."
Ouch, that hurt. Maybe it's true. "I did that once. I felt myself
completely giving in to him, but it scared us both. We even talked to
a psychiatrist about it, and she said there was no problem."
"I know what you mean Ben, that feeling of giving-in, it's really
wonderful," she said. She sighed and sat back against the wall. "Now
I know why I'm attracted to gay guys, they seem to understand things
from a girl's point of view."
She's attracted to me! I swallowed and pulled away.
"It's OK Ben," she said "I know you're with Tony."
She must have seen my surprised look, but I hope she didn't noticed my
interest in her. That would make things too confusing.
"Why don't we go find him?" she said.
Yes! I leaped up.
Patty chuckled.
"What?" I asked.
"It's so cute, the way you brightened up."
What can I say. "Is he in the kitchen?"
"Maybe. Let's go see." She held out her hand for me to help her up.
She lead the way, still holding my hand!
The sound of the living room hit me like the air was thick. Man, what
a sound system! I could feel the bass in my body. We got to the
kitchen. There was Dave and Tony, talking with some other people.
Tony's back was to me. Dave saw Patty approaching. Tony looked
around.
"I have someone here for you Tony," Patty said as pulled me up to
Tony. He smiled at me. She whispered something in his ear. His grin
disappeared and he nodded. Then she pushed me over to him. He put
his arm around me, and hugged me to his side. I put my arm around him
too and hugged back.
He leaned over, "Hi lover-boy," he whispered in my ear.
"Hi hot-stuff," I whispered back in his ear.
Hmm, "What did she say to you?" I asked.
He tensed up. "I'll tell you later."
"I'm sorry Tony. Things seem OK here."
"No, I'm the one who is sorry. I shouldn't have got carried away."
I looked at him and he looked back. We just stood there looking into
each other's eyes. Time seemed to stand still.
"Aren't they cute?" Patty said.
"Uh, yeah," replied Dave.
I looked down.
"Jealous?" she asked him. "You could of had either of them," she
said more quietly.
"I did, have them. Now I have you." he replied. I looked at them.
He was smiling at her and she was smiling back.
"Aww, aren't they cute?" I said to Tony. He busted up laughing. So
did Dave and Patty, who hugged each other.
"Let's dance some more," I said to Tony. "Just regular dancing, OK?"
"Sure sweetie." he whispered. "Let's go."
We danced on and off for about two hours. People were not looking at
us as much by the end of the evening. Guys seemed to keep their
distance. But a number of girls talked to us, mostly to Tony, I
noticed. A few times I pulled him away to dance some more. We left
after setting a date to go out with Dave, Patty, Sue and Jan next
Saturday. Everyone thought a movie would be fun.
On the way home. I asked Tony, "What did Patty say to you?"
"When?"
"In the kitchen when she whispered to you."
"Oh, ah." He griped the steering wheel. "She said, 'You be nice to
him or I'll try to take him from you.'" He squirmed.
Sigh, I don't want to go down that path. Why did I bring it up! Be
careful with what you say Ben. Let him know that you only want him.
"She can't compete with a fox like you," I said.
"Oh? I didn't know there was a competition."
Shit! I said the wrong thing. What should I have said? What can I
say? Stall.
"I didn't think there was either. I love you Tony."
Silence. I looked at him. He was just concentrating on the road. I
couldn't tell what he was thinking. He didn't seem angry, but he
didn't look too happy either.
"Are you interested in girls, Ben?"
That was the question that I didn't wanted to answer. If I lie, it
needs to be a quick 'no,' or else it won't be believed. But I can't
do that. I've delayed too long now. So I have to tell the truth.
But I don't know how I really feel or if I want to try girls. Even
that seems too threatening to say to Tony. What if I admit that I am,
a little, but let him know that I'm far more attracted to him. He
might reply with, 'so I might leave him for a girl.' But what's to
stop him from leaving me for another guy? That seems logical. I'm
taking too long! Say something.
"I guess I'm attracted to girls, sometimes. But right now, I'm only
attracted to you," I said. Not quite true, since I had a moment of
attraction to Patty. But I would never give up Tony for her.
"What about later? Wouldn't you want to see what you are missing?"
Not quite the response I expected, but maybe I can modify my reply.
"For me to want to go with a girl, or guy, is just as likely as for
you to go out with another guy."
"So you would leave me." he said angrily.
What did I say? This is turning into a full scale fight! I don't
want to fight with him. Tears were forming. Stop being a cry-baby
Ben. That's not going to help. Words aren't helping either. OK show
him.
Maybe we could park for a bit. I looked around. We were nearing the
bottom of a canyon. No houses were around. And this street didn't
seem very busy.
"Can we park and talk Tony?"
"Here?"
"Sure. It looks like there's a wide part of shoulder there at the
bottom."
He sighed. But he slowed down and pulled off at the spot I pointed
out. I was not planning on talking anymore.
He shut the car off. I unbuckled my seat belt and turned to look at
him. He was just staring ahead. I trembled a little. I didn't want
to loose him. He'll get anything he wants from me now. I'll do
anything for him.
"I love you, Tony."
He looked at me. I scooted closer to him.
"I love you too Ben."
I moved closer and touched my hand to his shoulder. He didn't pull
away. Whew. I moved quickly to him, to hug him. He put his arms
around me. I wanted to say something, but I forced myself to stay
quiet. I put my right hand on his cheek to turn him to kiss me, and I
kissed him. He wasn't responding much. I pushed my tongue into his
mouth. He held me tighter. Ah, he's responding to me by moving into
my mouth. I pressed up to him and gave him easy access to the spot.
I moved my hand down to rub his chest and down to his stomach and back
up to his chest. OK, it's now or never. I moved my hand down his
chest and side and then to his front, between his legs. I tried to
feel for his dick. He jumped, his hand pulled my hand away, and he
pulled back from kissing me.
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