The first person I actually dated was Joe. Joe and I were in the same company in the Army. He was in the Communications Shop. He lived down stairs from me in the barracks. He and I hooked up when Jason went home for the holidays. We dated for about 3 or 4 weeks. We spent the holiday traveling to Seattle together. The sex was not good. He was too closeted to really do anything. But I was new to the scene so I stayed with him until Jason returned after New Years.
Then I met Rodney. Rodney and I met at the club. He was standing on the speaker box dancing his body away. Everyone was jealous that I was talking with him. We became good friends, but that was all it was. We still talk today. He lives in California now.
I met Rich through my friend Vince. Vince and I were in the same company. He was in a different platoon. Rich and I hit it off and one day we met at the dining facility and went back to his barracks. We played on the computer for a while and then he found my weak spot. Rich started massaging my shoulders and neck. I fell for him hard and we ended up on the bed. I was getting the best back massage I had ever received. Then one thing led to another and we ended up dating for a while.
The thing with Rich lasted for a few months until one day, we just stopped seeing each other. I don't know what went wrong but I still like him today. I miss his company.
I met another guy named Rich about the time Rich, on base, and I parted ways. Rich#2 lived and worked in Seattle. He was ex-Air Force. We talked a while and went on a date. Things didn't go far untill a few months later.
Since Rich#2 and I didn't work out then, I was spending alot of time in Seattle at the clubs and trying to meet people. I was still new to the scene and didn't know many people. I met Robert at about that time.
Robert invited me to a party at a friends house in Bremerton, WA the next day. I decided to go. We hit it off and I became friends with him and his friends: Tina, Steve, and Bill. Bob and I continued up and down until he finally told me he just wanted to be friends. Then Bill moved in and we started spending time together.
Bill was the worst man I dated. Things started off great. We had a house, and bought a car together, using my credit. Bill, had stollen over $1,000 in cash out of my ATM, when I decided to take the car from him. He took the car back, and told me if I tried to take it again, he would beat my face in. I wasn't afraid of him, he weighed about 130 pounds, if that. He was no threat to me, but to protect the car, I got a restraining order from the court.
About a week later, I took the car back and changed the locks on both doors. I should have changed the ignition because a few weeks later, Bill took entered the car, sawed off the "CLUB" and took the car. It was parked infront of the Military Police Headquarters, on Fort Lewis. He drove the car to Missouri, and that was the last time I saw the car. (1993, Probe GT).
During this fiasko, I had met Andrew. We were dating/engaged for a few months. When I got out of the military we moved to Spokane, Washington. That is where his family was from. We were engaged for 7 months before he broke-up with me. We stayed friends/roommates. We were/are best friends. We still love each other. We realized we were meant to be family, not lovers. His parents do not agree with him and do not accept him as their son because of his homosexuality. This scared me. I didn't know what he would do. He is in my heart always. We have been there for each other through good and bad.
I met this really great, goodlooking guy at work, Spokane Transit Authority. His name (not) is Anthony. I really liked him. We became really good friends. He is still in my thoughts everyday. I hoped that we would get together someday, but he, as always, is straight. So we never did hook-up. He and I are close thought. He never cared that I was gay. We did alot together. And we joked about sex all the time. I love ya!
Andrew's father had been sick, with cancer, for a few months. He passed away in June, 1998. I wish I were there with him, physically, to console him. "Andrew, I love you, and will be here for you, in mind and spirit. My prayers are with you."
I met Chris on the 4th of July, 1997. We were at the club. He was standing on the upper stairs of the back, by the dance floor. He was cute. I tried to have everyone introduce us but they said he was bad news. I wouldn't like him. I did anyway. He brought me a drink a few hours later and we started talking and dancing. We ended up kissing in the bathroom and back hall, later.
I went on a few dates with Chris in July of 1997. We went to the park roller blading and back to his house. I met his friend/roommate and her/their son. I loved the man I saw. He was taking care of his best friend's son, as if he were his own. He was Aidan's father, not biologically. This made me love him even more. He was the greatest person. He was not the same person everyone was warning me about. But, as all things don't go my way, Chris and I were better friends than we could be lovers.
I met Peter on the phone, through a friend at work. Pete was Kevin's ex from Salt Lake City. We hit it off an he decided to come visit me in Coeur d'Alene. He came up and we hit it off even more. I liked him, but was skeptical, because he lived in Salt Lake City. So I forced myself to stay unattached for a while. I stayed with him the first night and things were wonderful. The next day was even better. I knew he liked me and I was definately liking his company. That night we went to the local gay bar, the only one in Coeur d'Alene, and he met all of my friends. That night I got really drunk, and Pete invited Zach over to the hotel room. They wanted a threesome and it started off but I decided it wasn't what I wanted. The next day Pete decided he didn't want to be with me and he didn't "love" me like he said he did.
When I moved to Rhode Island, I met Drew and Robert. Drew worked for REZsolutions Inc. Robert was the Administrative Assistant. Drew and I hit it off and became roommates. Robert and I hit it off well too. He moved to California in October 1998. He introduced me to his friend Matt.
Matt said he liked me, but I didn't make enough money for him to date. But, it was okay to mess around with me. I did, and regret it. I need more, so I haven't talked to him in a while.
I met Robert's hair stylist. He is beautiful. I want to get to know him, and be friends, maybe more, with luck.
Then there was Zephyr. He was the one person I could have seen myself with for ever. He was so sweet. Romantic, and spontaneous. He was, however, not as serious as I wanted. He showed up at the club one night with someone else and that was that.
When I moved back to Idaho I was led to believe my hairdresser and I were going to date...He decided he didn't want that...He didn't know what he wanted.
Then there was Seth. I met Seth at school. He was the first "President of the Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual Alliance" at North Idaho College. He was hot...I fell for him quickly. He was everything I wanted in a soul mate...However, he wanted to be friends...So now we are.
Okay, I haven't mentioned him before but now that I found him, after a 2 1/2 year search, I will tell you about the secret lust/crush/love of my life. His name is John. He was a roommate of mine in Bremerton. He was in the Navy at the time and I was dating Andrew. Because I was shy, and faithful, I never said anything to John or anyone else for that matter. Until now. I told John all about it. I spent a lot of money last year trying to find him to no avail. However, a whimsical search on Yahoo!! was the greatest thing I did in my entire life. I found John on there.
But, there was a lot that led to this moment and the search. You see, when John returned from Sea Duty in November 1996 I realized who he was as a person and started to fall for him. We spent a lot of time together. I spent every moment I could, trying to get to know him, and get close to him. When I was having trouble with the Army, John was there. He helped me through the roughest time of my life. I love him for that. He was always there for me. The only intimate time we actually spent together was a drive to Spokane to pick-up Andrew. I was massaging his back as he drove the car. If I weren't faithful, the car never would have made it to Spokane.
A few weeks later I left Bremerton and the Army and moved to Spokane. I regret doing it now, knowing that things with Andrew weren't going to work out. C'est la vie! I hope I can be as good to John as he was to me. Someday, maybe, things may get more intimate, but I am not pressing on that...I am just glad to get him back into my life. I feel a missing part of me has finally returned. "I MISSED YOU JOHN."
I am currently not seeing anyone. I am looking for a life long partner. I am therefore on the market and looking. I prefer someone who is in touch with themselves both spiritually and emotionally. I don't want someone who has a problem showing emotions. I want somepone who is energetic and also loves the outdoors. I also like pets. Someone who doesn't smoke and drinks only socially. I couldn't take a drunk either. Someone who will care about me as much as I care about them. Someone who is in shape and takes care of their body. ANY ONE OUT THERE LIKE THIS?
