Vanna Jean's Makeover Story.


August 8, 1998

Earlier this year I discovered the joys of the net and the opportunity to find other "girls" who share my lifestyle; as well as a number of resources that can provide information, products and services. I sure wish I had been born about 25 years later and had this technology to help me understand and fullfill my fantasies! When I found a list of services for my hometown I was thrilled. The usual search of the net (and the soul!) brought me to contact Monika at Safehaven First by e-mail and then by phone, I began to get enough courage to schedule an appointment. This was a very big step for me. As Vanna Jean, I had only driven around in the car, or made a fast trip to the mailbox. Except for a couple of Halloween parties, I had never even been with another human being while en femme. I was extremely nervous and was ready to bolt if I sensed anything wrong. I'm not even sure what that would have been! Well, as it turned out there was nothing about which to be nervous. Monika made me feel very comfortable immediately and we sat for a while and talked over a glass of wine. Both helped my nervousness.

Monika completed the transformation that night using my clothes, makeup and wig. I was amazed at how at ease I felt. There was something really relaxing about having her fuss with my hair and makeup while being non-judgemental and offering advice for Vanna Jean. We scheduled another makeover for 2 months later and it was equally enjoyable, especially since the nervousness had been replaced by anticipation. At the end of the 2nd makeover, I asked Monika if she would shop for my next makeover (one of the services she offers at Safehaven) so that I would not need to bring anything along for the next visit. The thought of having everything waiting for me was quite exciting. The thought of allowing Monika do a new image for me was even more appealing.

We agreed and scheduled another visit for August 8th. I'm typing this in the afternoon of the 8th anticipating the evening ahead.

Vanna Jean's Evening

I arrived a few minutes late for my much anticipated evening, and it ended MUCH later as well--we were having so much fun!! The evening dresses that Monika picked out were lovely--but the best one didnt quite fit. After nails, makeup and hair we tried on the clothes and took some pictures. Having someone else shoot the photos and help with the posing was an entirely new experience. Seems so much easier than the timer and trial and error on the tripod (CD Photo 101!!). The next page shows the results.

I was thrilled by the look in the blue dress, complimented by the auburn wig. When I first had a chance to see myself in the mirror, I felt absolutely feminine and was ready to party. But alas, no place to go but home! Even though I have been dressing for a long time, there are still times when everything is right. With the correct mood, a little wine, soft background music, good lighting, some nice clothes and accessories, and the caring touch of a makeup artist, a glance in the mirror can take your breath away. It can create the illusion that Vanna Jean is present, in her feminine best, and a very real part of who I am. Last night was one of those occasions. The feelings that came over me last night were so strong --- almost euphoric. I really was Vanna Jean Russell and did not want it to end. In fact, I had the strongest urge to share my feelings and sense of femininity with others who knew me, or a least to be out among TG friendly people. Of course it never lasts long enough, but it is so intoxicating. Perhaps addictive, or compulsive is an appropriate adjective. No--it's really just about being blessed with the ability to be who we want to be and to change completely the outward manifestations to match the inner feelings.

Well, it is MY illusion and that's how I see it. Look at the pictures and tell me how you see it.



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