Before Iris came back to Paris, we talked a lot together and she accepted to go out with me for my first steps out ... We didn't know how to do, how to organise it, but we decide to do it together ...

When Iris was at her hotel, we realised that it could be difficult to go out from the hotel without to be seen by the concierge ... The desk was just at the door of the hotel... Impossible to avoid the contact ... The day i decided to go out, at the restaurant for dinner, we searched a solution to be as most discreet as possible ... Iris told me that it doesn't matter about her if the concierge recognised me, (first time as man, second time as woman). She said that she didn't care what the concierge could think about her going out with me ... Iris was more embarrassed about what the concierge will think about me, if he recognised me ...

At the end of the dinner, we didn't know how to be discreet, and in my mind i was sure that i will never do my first steps out, in the streets of Paris ...

Back at Iris's room, she accepted that i dress for her ... just for fun, maybe few pictures.... and first of everything, she asked me if i wanted to try her Jacuzzi bathroom :)

I did it ... Iris prepare me the bath.... with too much water and soap ... it was impossible to go inside without doing a catastroph in the bathroom :)

After that, i decided to wear a white dress i bought for this event ... I wasn't sure to go outside .. either in my mind, i wasn't prepare to do this ... i thought i will stay in Iris's room ...

Then during my bath time, i told to Iris to use my computer and to connect to Internet to chat with friends ... she did ... and told to Christy, another tv friend from NY that Iris met before.

She said that i was not decide to goout with her ... So Christy asled to talk to me and she said me to do it ... That it was maybe my only time to go out en femme, in the Paris's streets ...

SO i did it ... i weared a casual look (dark top and black skirt). And Iris was with me for my first steps out. The first problem was to go out of the Hotel ... Iris asked to the night waiter to open the door.. the man looked at me, but i will never know if he realised who i was ...

And Iris and i were outside. It was so strange to hear my steps on high heels in the streets ...

I wasn't so usual to walk so fast ...

after 10 minutes walking, Iris asked me if i wanted to go in another place ... where people will be ... in fact we were in a  very calm place... and it was late (1am) ... I was too scary to imagine to walk across pepole that i denied the invitation ... Of course i regret i did not .. but it was too much for my first time out ...

On way back to hotel, we decided the strategy to go back in Iris's room ... She will talk with Night waiter, and i will go directly to the elevator to avoid his look ... i did it .. and Iris joined me at her room ...

It was a so strange feeling for me that i felt crying ... Tears were so strong that i couldn't stop it ...

This moment, with Iris, in Paris's streets will be one of my strongest feeling i ever lived in my life ...

Thanks so much Iris ....

  I love you  !!!!