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If you visit this site, you must obviously enjoy something about me. I have had some people ask me why I am not seeing anyone presently and I tell them that I want to but its just that the good guys are already taken.
I have a very sensitive self concept, and it has been shaken so many time within the past year that I am very wary of any more heartbreaks at this time. Some of my closest friends have recently told me such things as "you are a trip - you make life interesting" and "you are so much fun I don't know why (fill in the blank here) doesn't see it - you two would make such a cute couple)" but for some reason the people it should matter to don't ever see this side to me. I would venture to guess its because I don't want to make a fool of myself in front of them so early on, but maybe that's where I am making my mistakes - hesitating to get out there and make the moves. I am not a boring person to most people. Maybe I should try to let everyone know this =)
From this moment forth, I vow never to let myself go love happy again, but it will not stop me from being the sometimes weird guy that everyone says makes life interesting. Isn't that what life is about? Being spontaneous and carefree? God, if the guy I really wanted to date knew what I acted like around my best friends, lord only knows what kind of results that might have. Perhaps that's where I went wrong. I didn't show my true colors to him and it turned him off. Its what we all do when we hide in the closet. Not letting our colors show through makes us fakes. Something fake is not worth keeping.
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