My Crossdressing
This page is a journal of my crossdressing experiences. It starts out from when I first got started to present day. Plus a whole lot of other thoughts and feelings about it along the way. It may seem a little jumble up sometimes, but it is only a journal. I hope you enjoy it and can get something out of it.
How I Got started?
I started crossdressing as a teenager. How I got started is a little funny? My father was a closeted crossdresser. I always remember him wearing pantyhose under his regular clothes at a verry young age. When us kids asked him about it he always said he wore them because of the surgery he had on his legs. But as I got older and more curious I started to go through my parents bedroom dresser drawers. My mom was fat so I never found anything worth wild. But my father had everything. I found the prettiest, sexiest lingerie I have ever seen. So I started trying things on. It was the most incredible experience I have ever had. I loved the feeling of the soft sensual fabric of lingerie and nylons rubbing against my young body. So it became a regular part of my life. When ever my parents were gone I would go try on daddy's panties. That's how I first got started. I inherted it from my father.
Than when I becamed an adult at age 18 , I started going to "The Rocky Horror Picture Show". I found this to be a safe place where I could express my passion to crossdress and do Drag in public. This is a great place for any one who wants to come out in public. You feel safe there because everyone is walking around in lingerie. It was the first place I got to meet other people like me.
Then as I got more comfortable with my sexuality and crossdressing I started going to the local gay clubs in Drag. This becamed another place where I was able to go and be myself.
Dating and Crossdressing in Gay Bars
Dating and crossdressing in the gay clubs can be tough. When I first started going to the clubs in Drag I thought everyone would except me and I would find the perfect man. Well it doesn't work that way. People did accept you but in Drag you are not dating material. Gay men alway say, "If they want a women they would be with one."So if you look like a women they didn't want to be with you.
All the guys I went out with I met out of drag. I told them I do drag and if I go home with them they are going home with the man not the Drag Queen. Most of the guys I dated didn't even like me doing drag. I finally met someone who I fell in Love with. He had drag queens for friends so he didn't mind me doing drag. (Just thought it was a little weird.) So you can see it can be hard being a crossdresser and dating in a gay bar.
Why Do I Do Drag?
First, I don't do drag just for sexual reasons. I do drag because I love it. I love the attention I get when I'm in it. I love the clothes. I love being able to be anybody you want to be. When your in drag it's like being on the stage and you can play any part you want. It's about being in touch with other parts of yourself that you can't be as your self. But after doing drag for a while you learn to reach those parts without being in drag. So I guess drag is like therapy for me.
Plus you get to wear women's fashions. I love women's clothes. They are so beautiful. They have so much style and design. Let's face it men's clothes are all the same. They don't have a lot of style and they don't feel as good.
Drag for me is fun, sexual, breaking the gender lines of fashion and getting in touch with your inner self.