Laura's Bio

Like the majority of all of us Transgendered Girls, I started to dress in My Mum's things at a very early age, and had no idea that there was anything wrong with this at all, apart from a vague sense of unease when her high heels flew off for the umpteenth time, and as once again I tripped over the end of her frock. I was particularily fascinated by her makeup, and especially her red lipstick, and remember with horror the time that I was discovered under her bed covered in lipstick during a party with many of my parent's friends in the house... Covered in Lipstick and shame! That was the end of my tampering with her things for a while...

Before long I was shipped off to boarding school, and, apart from reluctantly taking the female parts in school plays due to my perceived pretty boy looks, I had no more to do with feminine things until about 11 or 12, when I rediscovered the joys of feminine apparel: By now my sisters were getting bigger, and between them and my Mum, there were tights and lacy underwear strewn everywhere. At first it was rather an indeterminate thrill to try these things on in private, but there came a time when I arrived for the summer holidays at our holiday house, where one of the girls who worked for my Dad was looking after my sisters in the absence of my parents. She had been staying in my bedroom before I arrived, and had all her clothes in my wardrobe, but when I showed up, she moved into another room, but left her things in mine... What a revelation it was when she went out for the evening! I was so engrossed in trying all these new and wonderful things on, that she very nearly caught me out when she got home a little earlier than expected... my first taste of what to expect in the future! After that there was no turning back!

Following that episode, my opportunities to dress were few and far between, but occasionally I would be unexpectedly put in a situation of utter bliss: Once put in my best friends' teenaged sister's bedroom when I stayed over one night; Once in my girlfriend's bedroom when staying there while she was away, and other such wonderful occasions... It was, however, only when I left school and moved away from home that I was able to enjoy myself on a more regular basis, usually borrowing things secretly from girlfriends, and dressing up  when they were away.

I am sure that many other T Girls will agree when I say that, pre-Internet, I thought of myself as something of an aberration, and sometimes wondered if I was gay. This thought was scotched, however, after a drunken fumble with a gay colleague after work one day! Not an enjoyable experience! Then, wonder of wonders, several years ago I discovered Compuserve, and also the fact that there were dozens, if not thousands of other girls just like me! My eyes were opened, as was Laura, and since then I have spent more and more time wishing the Net was invented many years ago! I was married 17 years ago, but never told my wife, Vicky, about Laura until April this year: I have wanted to say something for a long time, but never summoned the courage, even though I knew the idea was not wholly repugnant to her, as she works in the theatre, and has many gay and TV friends. But then, after a few abortive attempts and several glasses of wine, I finally spilt the beans... she was shocked at first, but soon turned to me and said I was brave to tell her, and stupid not to have said something before! What a girl! I am sure she was relieved that the reason for my withdrawal and secretiveness had not been because of another woman, rather the woman inside me :) One of the first things I did to celebrate was, with her help, to shave all over... Bliss!

Since then, she has helped me with my wardrobe, she shops with me, and generally encourages me to enjoy being Laura. I have been to a few TV nights around the country, and have been with Vicky to her friends' house for dinner, (an interesting cab ride home!). I also often go out as Laura to do mundane things like buy cigarettes, fill the car, and walk the dog, after dark, and would love to venture out much more often. Unfortunately, since I am away from home working for much of the year, (Entertainment Biz), and since there are not too many TV nights near East Yorkshire, opportunities to enjoy myself are limited somewhat :(
I would love to hear from, and maybe meet up with other TV girls, and maybe we can extend our opportunities to venture forth!

As for the future, who knows? There is a part of me that would love to be Laura full-time, but I am not ready for that just yet... time will tell... (Bit long in the tooth I think!) For the time being I am enjoying all of the benefits that this wonderful opportunity to have the best of both worlds provides me!!!