Here is a little slide show I put together for a friend of mine, to give him a better perspective on life.
I love the outdoors.
To blade, bike, hike, climb, work out (which I do
diligently), and many other physical activities.
Of course, partying and clubbing are two of my total
favorites. I often go dancing by myself just for the
sheer ecstatic feeling of the music. I'm pretty shy,
so going out to meet people has never been one of my
objectives...but I do meet a lot of people all the
time, despite my timidity, and make a pretty good
friend. Even if I do say so myself. :) Click on the pic to the right and you'll see some party stuff going on.
You may have noted that I have an interest in
gaming and fantasy...Ok, yeah I like to play games and
yeah I have an interest in fantasy. I read a lot, and part of that includes this genre. I find the creativity and the escapism of fantasy intriguing. I have a few pictures that I've gathered here for you to view...if you want.
Here is some poetry I've written
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Ah, but partying and playing are not the
only activities in life I enjoy. In addition to my
work, which is in Information Systems Technology
(Networking), I also love to read, write, sing and,
ha ha...act. I have some pictures posted of my
stage performances as well as some things I've
written if you would like to take a moment to laugh
at me. Just click on the weird universe thingy to go
there.
In closing...
Here you find a bit of who I am. I'm shy, but ironically social when I get coaxed out of my house. I find humor in almost everything, though my humor can by tinged in cynicism and irony. I'm a messy boy, and my house can be a disaster at times. Just like anyone my age, I'm super charged sex boy (though I may be a little better educated since I used to work in a porno store in Portland). I'm athletic and love my workouts and to do physical things. I rave, go clubbing, movies, dinner, or whatever pops up. I'm a pretty good guy, but I'll admit that I'm not that comfortable with who I am, so I shy away from dating since I'm easily hurt. My biggest downfall in this regard is the belief that, if I really love someone, I want the best for them no matter how much it hurts me. Therefor, anyone I really care about, I can never be with since I am CERTAINLY not the best they can do. So, I push people away in hopes they will find something better.
My favorite quote is "The only way to hurt a man who has lost everything is to give him back something broken." -- Steven Donaldson.
I think that says a lot about how people can be to each other. It is sort of like seeing someone you really love destroy themself or be destroyed by others. No matter how much you want to shield them from cruelty, sometimes you just are not strong enough. I do what I can to help my friends, but I take their hurts and failures personally--and I sometimes don't feel like I'm good enough to be their friend.
But I'm here, and I can only try. And I think I've learned to love a lot of people that way...
