Why Me?

I have had feelings for both sexes since I started having feelings of that nature; back in the sixth grade, I had a crush on my best friend. I also remember being enamored by a girl in the eighth grade when I was in the seventh. At the time, I was taught that such things were not acceptable, so I never persued those feelings even privately.
Whenever I felt attracted to women, or fantasized about women, I thought I was being evil, and tried to suppress such things.

Receintly, I have begun to deal with abuse that I suffered as a child, and later as an adult. In this quest for healing, I have searched for myself, questioning each and everything I have ever been taught or believed. While I have not abandoned everything that I had been taught, I have discovered that part of the real me is that I am attracted to women as well as men.
It is part of who I am, and I am learning to accept this. So be it.

So, why do I ask why me? Because though I am learning to accept this being bi as a fact, it is still hard for me to accept this in my heart. Thirty plus years of supression is hard to overcome. Part of me hates all of this, and still thinks that I am bad or evil for entertaining such things, but I do know better. I am who I am.