Just a few more days till Valentine's day and i still haven't even attempted to go shopping. No one really to go shopping for, well a select few i want to send special things to, but its always nice to walk around the mall and see the happy couples. Hey one can hope right? Of course the entertainment is great too. Boys and girls walking around frustrated cause they can't find that one gift to make that special day complete. Sometimes its good to be single.
The past few weeks have been full o activity. Sometimes life became unbearable and I felt like giving up, but I come from a line of stubborn folk so it was nearly impossible for me to! I've done things im not too proud of, said words that i've regretted, and basically have lived a nightmare most days. However, like all things in life, its always been for the best and now that I think back... maybe it really wasn't so bad. Every dark moment has its silver lining and i've become close to some really special people and come to understand my friends more. I met someone who means the world to me... cheesy lil cliche but im too lazy to think of anything else at the moment! All I can say is that hes really sweet, has a hot voice, hottie and a half, not to mention he is really awesome.
Other than be walking around in the daze thinking about him... work has been a bitch. Ooops am I allowed to cuss? Oh well, in any event... the patients are rude and you just want to strangle em. I get the feeling its mutual tho cause there have been many o cases where we have had to call security to "hang out" for awhile. Having yer life threatened is pretty interesting... specially when you are not authorized to stike back in "self defense" half the time. Don't you just love life? =o)
I guess thats all i'll write about now. I have other ideas and thoughts i'd like to say but my mind is in a jumble. I think I may write more poetry (that prolly i'll think is lame and toss away) or another story if I get around to it. For now... its expensive fone bills, working late hours, struggling to stay awake during classes, and a variety of other o so fun activities. I do have to admit tho... whenever i feel down or out, I think of all the people who mean alot to me and it makes me smile. Love you Drew... Kam.. Luke... Ryan.. and the cast of thousands who help me get thru this thing caled Life. Hope you all are enjoying it and living it to the fullest. Best wishes.