January 2000... even though i'll only turn 20 this year, its kinda odd to think im living in another millenium. Maybe its just me. A new year, a new millenium, another chance at life.
I hope the holidays was very special for all of you. I know i'll never forget mine. It has probably got to be the most painful yet most memorable holiday season in my young life.
The season started off with me trying to pay off bills, figuring out why exactly I was in school, and just trying to get a grip on life. As it got closer and closer to Christmas, I found myself trying to work two jobs (I was starting a new one and leaving my old one). I was killing myself trying to keep up with both of them but surprisingly I was handling it all well. I thought I was in the clear...
When things started to seem normal again, life thru me another curve ball. I recieved word that my best friend had died and thats why I hadnt hear from him in awhile. That just took me out... i was stunned for a few days and eventually i got sick and remained sick thru out Christmas and well into New Year's. I had lost other people in my family but Drew was alot closer to me than most of them were... at least thats how it seemed to me. I miss him a great deal and it still hurts, especially when i run across a pic of him or a letter he wrote me. I'll always love you Drew... wherever you are.
While others where partying (or hiding) during New Year's Eve, I was busy working. Thats right... I rang in the New Year by drinking sparkling cider from a measuring cup and then I got back to work filing prescriptions (gee wonder what i could be working as now). It seemed fitting that I had a quiet New Year after all the turmoil and surprises the holidays brought.
Now its the 5th of January and so far tihngs have become quite normal, well as normal as things could get. Im making way more than I thought I would ever be making at this age, with benefits to boot, I think I might have an idea of what I plan to do with my life, and so far there hasn't been any surprises this year. Hopefully I can start this year off and just remember how weird 1999 was for me. Maybe i'll write a story about the year... God knows there was plenty going on in my life to make it at least a decent soap opera.
Sorry this seemed a little serious. Ive been in a mellow mood lately and trying to re-organize my life. As you can see... things haven't happened the way I hoped they would go. What can ya do? Life throws you a lemon so you just make lemonade... bad i know but I thought I would throw something cheesy in here. Hopefully your New Year is the best so far and that you enjoyed the holiday season. I do have to admit that my family and friends helped me get thru the holiday season and im very thankful for that. They mean alot to me... but theyd never really hear me say that in person! Good luck... God bless... be safe and till next time.