Alrighty, so its the begining of summer... warm breezes, bright sunlight, sunburns and heatwaves galore. Doesn't get any better than that does it? Too bad it hasn't been that way so far. Sunny Southern California so far as been grouchy and somewhat gloomy... I guess you can say we are slowly easing into the summer months. *shrugs* In any case... now that i've done some mindless rambling, which im sure will be evident through out this update, lets move on.
School is over finally... and im very happy to report that I pulled off a 3.0 average last term. Thankfully that pulls me out of prohbation and allows me to stay at Chapman. Ya, I know what you are prolly thinking right now... "what the #$@% where you doing on prohbation?" To be honest with you... I just bummed out the spring semester of my freshman year. I didn't have a clue as to what I wanted and I just gave up. Sad to say but it happened and look where it took me. I took a year off from school, my parents convinced me to join the army national guard which I did without thinking and managed to create some interesting memories during the time I was enlisted, fell into the hands of Disney and became a cast member for awhile, struggled to come back to Chapman and have found that sometimes we all need help no matter how strong you think we are. Weird huh? Sometimes I think about what could have happened had I did things differently... regretts in my life yet I can honestly say that I don't really want to change things. If there was one thing I would change, it would be to have found someone to share all these experiences with. *ponders* Okay... sorry about that tangent. No more cheetos while thinking...
So ya, im off prohbation and will be returning to Chapman in the fall. Im moving back onto campus and have decided to work only three times a week instead of full time like i did this last year. Being burned out isn't a very nice feeling altho getting pampered when yer body eventually gives out can be nice! Im still undecided on my future but I am continuing in Psychology. My friends still come to me for advice, why I haven't the foggiest notion, but its good to know that your needed, ya know? I think I do have a good connection with people... and besides, everything we do and say has always intruiged me. Not to mention that if I do decide to go into clinical psychology, having someone sit and ramble on while paying me about $50+ an hour isn't all that bad. Im joking... its a nice thought tho aint it? *grins*
As usual, ive added more pictures to my site. So far they are only from the raves i've attended due to the fact that i've been going quite an aweful lot. Does that sound like good english grammar to you? Anyway... they have been put up and im in the process of developing more as time goes on. I have a few rolls I havent developed yet... friends and family who are bugging me about getting them done. If you'd like for me to post some pics that you have, let me know.
I should prolly be bringing this to a close now. I've just taken time out to write this short update because I cant do much of anything else while I download "Beautiful" by Matt Darey. Its such a beautiful song and I love dancing to it. In fact... just about anything is great to dance to. Those of you who know me can vouch to my love of music and dancing. What draws me to raves is the music that pounds thru your body as you move to the beat. Everything else just comes from there... people who watch you dance smile and come dance with you, you make a new friend, find a new song, create some new memories, maybe even find someone in that huge crowd of people who looks at you and you know that you've fond someone to bond with... dance with.. cuddle... share stories and basically, share life in general. Its happened once before... I know it can happen again.
A few shout outs:
So that concludes this update.. kinda long aint it? Trust me... you definitely got the short end of it, if you ever wanna just sit and talk some about life in general or just talk to someone, look me up. I'll be in South Carolina from the 12th of June till the 17th watching my lil bro graduate and then im most likely moving back to the San Fernando Valley (Chatsworth) for the summer so i'll definitely be around. Keep on dreaming... *cheesy I know* and whatever happens, remember that things happen for the best... even if we don't realize it at the time.