So, here we go... What if you were away at a university for a year, but did so poorly, that you had to come back? What if while you were there you met this awesome girl, and after 4 months she finally agreed to go out w/ you? What would you do then when you found you weren't coming back to the university, which is 1,000 miles from your house? What would she do? Hey, long distance relationships can work, right? 1,000 miles, more than 1,000... It's possible, right? You're old enough and mature enough to hold on to it... and to not cheat... I mean, come on, after all, this is the most awesome girl you've ever met. But you know, the time gets long... even just the time you don't see each other during the summer. I mean, what if you were someone who needed physical contact, and this girl (who really wasn't very attractive) started flirting w/ you... physically? Would that break you? Or would this girl you were in the "official" relationship be too important to you for you to hurt? Oh, how weak we are... And then there is always the other's side. What would she do about it? Would she keep taking you back, after you time and time again were telling her to get out while she could? Maybe... but maybe she would eventually decide to give up, and put the thing on hold... until you came back up there a year later. And maybe the ex started the downhill slide... Speaking of, after her dad forbade us ever communicating again, she and a good mutual friend decided I could make an e-mail account using that friend's name, since he trusted the friend and wouldn't try to read the e-mail. (Yes, he reads his own daughter's private e-mail.) This all worked for a while... but then apparently somehow every time (or at least she said it was every time) she talked to me, he'd find out, and she would be severely punished. This is why (at about the same time that she got another new boyfriend) she had not been speaking to me. I thought it was because the little punk was scared of me, and told her not to talk to me... I think it may have been a bit of both. Anyway, now I haven't talked to her since before her birthday, which was at the end of May. It is slowly getting easier. But back to the whole long distance thing... what if for some reason you had this urge to just stop talking to them? And it ripped you up, because you felt so guilty about it, but you still wanted to? Then what? Should you just get off the computer so you don't have to talk to her? And call the girl ::starting to sweat:: that you've been hanging out w/ all summer? Should you? Someone answer me!! Ahhhh!!!

(8-29 15:47)

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