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Antithesis

Lukewarm, tepid, indifferent, selfish. This is one of my anti-ideals, what I would like to avoid becoming. Useless, fearful, thwarted, stunted, incomplete. Living short of the potential God gives me every day is another antigoal. Superficial, animal, sensual, uncontrolled; death is better to my heart than any of these.

Who is this person I am? Every instant of every day, this individual lives, fears, believes, fails, succeeds. Who is this being?

This being is dead.

WRONG

You are alive.

You are mine. I made you so you could succeed, pick yourself up from failure, believe, trust, live abundantly, every day, every instant. This is the person you are.

Your heart can live because in me you are self-controlled, restrained, human, and deep. Your goal is working out the potential I gave you, and exceeding it. Complete, mature, beautiful, confident, and useful, That is what you already are in me. This is your ideal, through my blood you are selfless, loving, warm, and alive.

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