†Ethan's House†
Our Angel.....
Joseph Ramon
August 25th, 1992 to August 12th, 1996
Joseph loved to fish, canoe, and go sledding. Actually, he loved all things outdoors. He was very mechanical, and he liked to figure out how things worked. He had sparkling brown eyes, and was my only son.
I think I'm a better person now. I don't let the little things bother me. I'm a much more compassionate person. Sometimes it seems like everything I do, I do for him. I still deal with a lot of sadness and anger, although I'm not mad at anyone in particular. I'm just angryd because he isn't here with me.
After Joseph's death most of my family deserted me. I have not heard from anyone except my parents and sisters. But, aunts, uncles and cousins have not called me or sent me a note. The relationships with my parents and sisters is much stronger then it ever was before. I had been remarried a year when Joseph died. Thank goodness I married a wonderful man, and him and I share our grief. And he will do anything in his power to help me heal.
This year we planted butterfly bushes and a butterfly garden. Joseph liked butterflies. I planted a tree at the cemetery for his first birthday spent in Heaven. Some friends and family are going to buy books to donate to the school library in Joseph's memory. We will be doing that for all of his birthdays from now on.
I would tell other bereaved parents to cry when you need to cry. I used to be so afraid of it. I thought if I started to cry I wouldn't be able to stop, but I realized after some time that it really helped. The same goes for screaming; I used to scream in anger when I was alone in my car. The biggest thing I would suggest is to keep a memory journal. Every once in a while out of the clear blue, I will remember something Joseph said or did, and then I write it down. That way when I'm really lonely for him I can open the book and remember.
Please read more about Joseph Ramon at his homepage.
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