Amusing Chat
03/10/03
Today was rather interesting, if unproductive. I woke up and started my normal rounds (Ebay, email, DSR) before going on cam. Mark was online so I chatted with him till it was time for him to go to bed, then I discovered a new place to put the cam.
As those of you who entered the site through my chat page already know, I have my WEB cam on quite often and have some creative places to place it. Well, one of my favorite places is in the shower.
The chatroom that I use to broadcast the cam is one of the Yahoo chat rooms. The main reason that I have the cam on at all is to get material for my chat pages. I normally wouldn't put so much effort into one section of the site, but this section brings in more traffic than all the other sections combined. Besides, one day I'll figure out a way to make those perverts pay to view my cam. Then I'll really be rolling in money. lol
After taking a break from the internet to do some cleaning that desperatly needed to be done (with the history channel on in the background). I came back to my cpu to discover another person stalking me online.
It seems that ever since I got a hit from someone looking for nude pictures (their search request was "Marilyn Manson's naked band") and posted it on DSR. People for some reason thought that I had nude pics of Manson on my site when all I said in the was I had seen nude pics of him in Hustler.
Now I have people leaving guestbook entries, sending emails, and now IMing me asking where on my site they are. Well, let me just say for the record: THERE ARE NO NUDE PICS OF MARILYN MANSON ANYWHERE ON THIS SITE.
Also, I am formally announcing my intent to post the e-mail addresses of anyone who contacts me in referance to nude pics on this site. I may also, at my own discression, post the content of any said e-mail or IM that I receive if I think it will be of interist to my readers(such as the girl that IMed me saying that she and her ex wanted a threesome with Manson). All other emails are exempt from this but if you ask about nude pics of Marilyn Manson, don't say you weren't warned.
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3/18/03
Well, we're at war. Or might as well be anyway. T minus 24 hours.
Not that I'm suprised mind you. I've known that this would happen since last summer. It was never a matter of if, but of when. What else should you expect when you not only have a warlord as president, but also the son of a warlord.
At least we're leaving the time of "uncertianty" as to whether or not there will be a war. Maybe now my stock portfolio and my place of work will see a rise in profit rather than a gradual slide toward oblivion.
In my own life, not much has been going on. I received two packages I ordered from EBay (a book by Thoreau from the 1800's and a copy of "The Darwin Awards") and I've been working steady the last few days. That last is something that might stop if the economy doesn't pick up soon
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3/28/03
OOOO... I'm so mad I could scream. There was some asshole guy from Kuwait in the bar I frequent today. He was standing there talking to my friends when I got there. When I walked up the first thing out of his mouth was "What, are you some sort of Ozzie fag?"
Not knowing if he was a friend of one of my friends I let the comment slide. He kept on with this line of commentary and even used his foot to block me from pulling out the chair that I was going to sit in. Judging from the looks on my friends face's I couldn't tell if they knew him or not (one of them did keep shaking her head as if to say "I know what you're thinking but don't do it).
Well, having had quite enough of this jerk, I told my friends that I'd be back and went to find a member of the waitstaff. Not being able to find any of them at that moment I sat at another table until he left the table my friends were sitting at.
Well, the guy comes back two other times and is promptly told to leave by Aaron who was also clearly annoyed with him. The third time he comes to the table he tells my friend Brain (a 6'5" BIG black guy) "you need to control your friend here before something bad happens," referring to Aaron.
At this point I was through. I said "You need to get your god damned sandmonkey ass away from our table. Go back up to the front and stay the fuck away from our table." He started to say something to me but I cut him off saying "NO, Go the fuck away!" I half expected him to swing at me, luckly I must have been forcefull enough to make him think twice about that.
Well, he left but was soon kicked out of the bar altogether when he got Jessica all worked up (one of the waitstaff). Everyone that worked there was cursing him and telling him to leave. Jessica was so worked up over the whole thing that she refused to leave until we offered to escort her to her car.
I can't stand these losers.
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4/14/03
I just finished watching a rebroadcast of "The Sunday Night Sex Show". I swear, that show should be mandatory viewing for everyone. It's a call in talk show on the Oxygen channel that is hosted by a woman old enough to be my grandmother. Something about the way that this woman talks about vibrators, STDs, homosexuality, and just about anything else related to sex is amusing and comforting at the same time.
On another note, I learned that California State University has linked to this page on my site and labeled it required reading for it's online course: "Communication and the Sexes".
I didn't write the essay, Marilyn Manson did, and I can't imagine why he would use my site as the main source for the article. After all there are dozens of people that have added article to their site as a mirror (I'm listed as the main site to go to, not the alternate mirror lol). Maybe he needed to find a new location that had the article once Marilyn Manson took it off of his site and mine was the first that popped up on Google. Oh well, I get more hits to my site AND I get the amusement of knowing that a college would make something (anything!) on my site "required reading" (I'd REALLY be floored if either of the chat pages were made required reading by a college).
Now to go to that page and add links to all the other pages on my site :P
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4/29/03
Not much going on in my life right now. I've gotten back into playing Gemstone III again and that's eating up most of my free time. I've already gotten my character up to level 7 and it's only been a little over a week :)
I've added to the chat section. This one was emailed to me by a friend from Philly. Go here to read it.
I've also got my sellers ID on Ebay now. I may add a link the items for sale section in the near future. Nothing too special, just some stuff that's been sitting around the apartment too long. Some items that my ex left behind too...
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5/10/03
I know what country and timezone you're in, the search request you used to find my site (assuming you came here from a search engine), the last page you viewed before coming to my site, your screen resolution, OS, and WEB browser. If you entered this site through one of the pages in my "Chat" pages, I even have your IP address. All that information received by me, in less than a second, just because you came to this site.
The fact that most internet users don't know that every WEB site collects all this information, more in some cases, can give a person a kind of voyeuristic joy.
Should you be worried about this? Not when it comes to me. I just look at it because I find it interesting. Of course, if you're one of those SICK FUCKS that came here using a search request designed to find child porn, all the information I have on you has been/will be given to the proper authorities.
I also keep a list of which countries I've gotten hits from (58 of them and counting) and any search requests that people used to get to my site that I find humorous will be posted to Disturbing Search Requests.
Amazing what random thoughts one has end up on their WEB site...
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5/19/03
The new Marilyn Manson CD, X-man 2, and The Matrix: Reloaded all came out within 2 weeks of each other!!! Could life get any better?!?!?!
To top it off, Manson included a DVD with his CD that's focking awesome!! That DVD has me thinking about EVERYTHING in a new light. Sorry mainstream America, I'm still not thinking of things the way you would have me.
"Are you motherfucking ready for this new shit!!!" What a great way to start out a CD!
To all the people on all the BBS and newsgroups bitching that "Manson has a message on his CD, I don't want a message, I just want some good beats to listen to mindlessly" (yes, I've seen this arguement almost word for word): You've got the wrong artest and the wrong genre, go back to your pussy ass Backstreet Boys and Eminem.
While I'm at it, all those mindless people can get the fuck off my site too. Find your underage porn and church bake sales elsewhere. Those looking for www.fuck.com, you have an address bar, FUCKING USE IT! Better yet, I'll save you the ten seconds it would take you to tell you WWW.FUCK.COM DOESN'T EXIST!!! It is not now nore will it ever be a registered domain name (for those of you morons that know what a domain name is).
Now that I have that out of my system, it'll be interesting to see what DSR's this entry brings in. "fucking mindless bake sale porn" perhaps?
"You wanted perfect, you got your perfect, but now I'm too perfect for someone like you... you'll never be as perfect whatever you do"
"I've got my "f" and I've got a "ck" too, now all that's missing is a bitch like you"
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5/21/03
Madonna, how could you?
I just saw the reworked video for "American Life" and I must say you have done a HUGE disservice to your fans and the general public as a whole. What was an edgy, well thought out, entertaining, and thought provoking video has become a mindless, dull video that I wouldn't call art to save my life.
I've seen the original video (thanks to Win MX) and was upset when I found out you were redoing it. Now that I've seen what you've done to it, I feel ashamed for you. Honestly, what was so offensive about the video that you would sink to this level? Especially after such controversial videos as "Like a Prayer" and "Human Nature"?
You're getting soft Madonna and I don't like it, you're better than this.
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5/20/03
I was having trouble with the Guestbook so I opened an account with another free guestbook company. It's a shame the other one stopped working, I really liked them and hate to lose everything people contributed before.
Please, feel free to sign it and put whatever you like there. If you have any problems with it, send me an email to let me know.
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6/11/03
I was laying in bed trying to get to sleep this morning when something came on the TV that horrified me to the point of forsaking sleep to write about it here.
The thing that woke me up was a 911 call that The O'Reily Factor was playing. A little girl called "911" because her brother was being beaten by their parents. The girl was obviously scared, just like any of the similar 911 calls that we've all seen on the news.
What got to me wasn't the little girl that made the call. It was what I heard after the girl said "I have to set the phone down now". The screams of a young boy were what was obviously something hard hitting him were what got to me.
The 911 operator can also be heard, freaking out, counting the number of times the child was struck and screaming at police to hurry. I can't say I blame her for freaking like that, I probably would have too. She made it to 65 before the sounds stopped.
Investigators later determined that the mother and father were beating the boy with a "wooden board". Their other 4 children had been similary abused.
Both parents were sent to jail. After a year, the mother was released. She then regained custody of four of her five children (they had been in foster care while she was in jail). The judge's reason for returning custody to the mother was that as their mother, she had the right to have custody of them.
Let me take this moment to say: WHAT THE FUCK!
Fuck giving the kids back to her. She should have been drawn and quartered after what she did to those children! She lost any right to custody of those children the second she started abusing them. Hell, she lost her right to EVER be within 500 feet of ANY children!! And they gave her four kids back! What the hell's wrong with that picture!
While trying to find a source on the WEB I could point my visiters to (no such luck) I found this, which also happened in Texas.
If anyone reading this knows a child that's being abused, PLEASE, report it and follow what happens. If it looks like the abuser will regain custody, contact the prosecuting attorny and tell them what you know, volunteer to testify, do whatever you can to MAKE the courts see that the abuser shouldn't have custody of the child again. A simple search on Yahoo brought up far more cases like these two than I could ever read. Do we really need to add to them?
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5/26/03
A message to the person that signed my guestbook using the name "I don't 'heart' you". Why is it that you're too scared to list your email? Could it have anything to do with the fact that you found this site using the search term "underage porn"?
I've seen all of you pedophiles, or "boy lovers" as you so like to be called, WEB sites. They're sick and that opinion has nothing to do with how much or little I am open minded. Open mindedness has to do with how you arrive at an opinion on an issue and how willing you are to examine that opinion when new evidence comes too light. Not on what stance you take or how you express your opinion once you arrive at it. Some of the most opinionated people I've known were also the most open minded.
I've done a good deal of research into the issue of child porn and how you're looking to be "understood". Were pedophillia like homosexuality, S&M, or even water sports, where both parties could give informed consent I might have a different opinion on the issue. Seeing as how they can't, and we don't live in ancient Rome, my opinion stands. Pedophiles destroy the one true virtue of children, their innocence. While they must eventually lose it anyway, anyone who would willfully destroy it should be thrown to the wolves.
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6/25/03
3:45 PM: Well, my site is now officially more popular in Europe than in the US. Of course judging from my WEB logs that just means that Europe has more pedophiles... BUT, I won't be picky any longer. I'm getting 150+ hits a day, more than ever in the four and a half year history of Lilith Danaher's Church of the Open Minded. That's all that matters isn't it, that people are actually seeing what I've created and (hopefully) enjoying it.
Btw, to the guy from Germany that signed my guestbook, please correct me if I'm mistaken but are you calling my site cheesy or are you just seeing if I know german (I don't, I had to use a online translator)?
And when will Gemstone III be back up... TV has gotten SO boring since I got back into playing it. Esp. those stupid reality shows that are so popular these days.
Back to Gemstone III, I filally got my empath up to level 13. My sorcerer is still floundering around at level 12 though... till the Invasion is over he may very well stay there too...
Shit, gotta go to work... gonna have to make this another two part post...
6:20 PM: Ok, back... just went in for a couple hours to clean...
Erm... where was I.... Oh yes, I was going to announce the latest development to the site. I'm going to start a section divoted to Gemstone III. Actually, it won't be a section of this site so much as a new WEB site sharing server space with this one.
Don't worry, I won't be changing anything here. I just have so much server space that I'm not using that I figured I better find a way to use it (I'm only actually using about a tenth of what I have). Well, this is how. Other than a link to it from this site, you won't even know that they're on the same space.
Better get to work on it...
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6/20/03
2:15 PM: Am I the only one that sees the irony in the big story about a bishop involved in a hit and run accident killing a carpenter, and the chruch trying to cover it up till the press got ahold of it?
I needed something like that to take my mind off the fact that the Secret Service is going to be at work until Monday or so... Some high up goverment official is going to be there according to the rumors. Along with protesters and a whole bunch of other shit I'm sure.
oops gotta go to work, finish this later
11:00 PM:
Wahoo! I dont have to work Mon.! No putting up with the closed streets around the Hotel, snipers on the roof (they'd probably shoot me on sight :P), searches, protesters, etc.
My boss was even telling me that once we enter the building we wouldn't be allowed to leave till the event was over. Also, once we entered the banquets dept, we wouldn't be allowed to leave that area of the hotel (which would REALLY suck because both the smoke room and the bathroom are in the basement... Not even allowed to go out on the loading dock to smoke!)
All that security for the vice president. I mean the man is probably going to die of a heart attack in the next six months anyway... why bother killing him, just wait a while....
I did find out that I passed their background check... they obviously didn't find this site. lol
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9/11/03
Today marks the two year anniversary of the biggest disaster on US soil since Pearl Harbor. May all the victems of terrorism rest in peace.
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9/04/03
Well well well, the Mistress of Sexuality is at it again and pushing the envelope further than ever. Yes, I'm talking about this years MTV Music Video Awards. That has to be the best music performance I've seen in a long time, even if it did have Britney Spears in it (I remember the first time I heard her name I thought she was a porn star... I wasn't too far off :P).
Although, I really don't see what all the hype it about it being "shocking". Come on, what do you expect out of those three. We've known for years that Madonna's bi, Britney's a lipstick lesbian (what? you thought she was really dating Justin? do the words "publicity stunt" mean anything to you?), and Christina... well, we've all seen her videos lately.
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8/02/03
Not much going on lately. Had a lot of days off so I've been spending most of my time playing Gemstone 3.
I've managed to get my empath up to level 16 (wahoo! she learned silence). The sorcerer is still only at 14 but I'm working on him. Next level he gets to use curse... a spell that should prove useful (in punishing the pickpockets that is). I've also started working on a web page dedicated to the game.
Yesterday, I had to remind myself that West-enders aren't the worst drivers aren't the worst drivers in the world... So, I drove down to my favorite book store in Southside. Driving in Rome is probably safer...
Found a couple of really good books. The first is Aleister Crowley's "Diary of a Drug Fiend", one that I've been looking for for quite a while now. I've only made it 15 pages into the book and I've already highlighted at least one sentence on each page (hey, if christians can highlight the bible, I can highlight this).
The other is a book called "Encyclopedia of the Gods". More than 2,500 gods from just about every religion you can think of!!! Who could ask for more!
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8/02/03
Ok, I don't know what the hell is going on, or what spirit I'm channeling, but I woke up from a dead sleep with an urgent need to write. When I got to the keyboard, the words just started pouring out of me. But, unlike when I normally write, the words were on the screen before I thought them... or maybe I only thought them when I saw them on the screen.
Either way, this is the result. If the manner in which I wrote it weren't unsettling enough, the subject matter certianly was. I mean, why would a gay male write a story like "Not My Fault"?
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7/17/03
The preamble to the Constitution of The United States of America. Beautiful in it's simplicity, meaning, and purpose. So it the rest of the document (with the possible exception of amendments 18 and 21, but that's a different essay).
But, what if we were to add the words:
"Marriage in the United States shall consist only of the union of a man and a woman. Neither this constitution or the constitution of any state, nor state or federal law, shall be construed to require that marital status or the legal incidents thereof be conferred upon unmarried couples or groups."
It would seem to me that such an amendment (which that will be if certian law makers have their way... word for word) were to be added to the Constitution, it would no longer be such a wonderful document. Rather, it would be the most hypocritical work ever committed to paper.
For one thing, I would like to know how restricting marrage to heterosexual couples would "promote general welfare" of anyone outside the religious right. Keeping a two people that are in love with each other from the union that is sacred to them and striping them of their already limited legal rights is not only (currently) unconstitutional, its cruel, immoral (a word that the backers of this ammendment need to look up), and cold hearted. I seriously doupt that such an act is what our founding fathers had in mind when they said they wanted to "promote general welfare".
Also, what about the "insure domestic tranquility, provide for the common defense" part. It would seem to me that this flies right in the face of that too. After all, what's the next step after this ammendment?
Maybe they want the ammendment following it to say: "Sexual activities in the United States shall consist only of the union of a man and a woman"? Then you can throw all of us "faggots" in jail. On second thought, there are too many of us for that, they'd have to open concentration camps to accomidate us all.
Even baring that extreme example, I know I won't be very tranquil if I find someone that I love enough to marry but cannot even enter into the limited "civil union" we're already allowed. Hell, I wouldn't be happy till I could marry him.
Yea, get this ammendment ratified. I'll be the first one in line to shoot myself in front of the White House in protest of it.
Anyone that opposes this ammendment like I do can go to the Oppose the Federal Marriage Amendment web site and sign their online petition against it. They already have 551,604 signatures (as of while I'm writting this) and every one is a step toward defeating this unjust amendment.
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7/08/03
Bout damn time....
Finally got the internet hooked up in my new apartment. You have no idea how boring it is to have 5 days off and NO internet or cable. Don't even think of reccomending dialup, even if I had a landline (which I don't, just a cell) I couldn't go back to that. I'm too used to cable internet.
Be updating in the next couple days. :P
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6/27/03
Alright! Time to celebrate!
The US Supreme Court has ruled that sodomy laws are unconstitutional!! Can you hear that? It's the sound of all the homophobic biggots screaming in outrage! About time it was them and not us. :P
But, before we get carried away, I feel I should say something to the park queens (you know who you are): This doesn't mean it's ok to fuck in the bushes now (there are other laws about that). So, don't go making the rest of us look bad doing that.
Now that that's out of the way...
This ruling throws open so many doors that were, if not slamed tightly shut, were only barely open before. This is a true milestone in the history of gays in America. Damn it feels good to finally be considdered a person!
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