wake,
eat, live, sleep, dream
wake, eat, live, sleep, dream.
failed another geometry test.
forgot to call my best friend,
hey-why is it all up to me?
he still remembers my number-
i think.
cried with all the others,
longed for a friend who lives far away,
whom i didn't get to know
hey, maybe next time he's in town.
wanted a man, got a scary movie.
couldn't think of a word to rhyme with 'movie'...
oh well, this poem doesn't rhyme anyway
probably gained ten pounds, or
maybe i'm just paranoid.
probably both.
wanted to write a good poem, not
so sure if it worked or not.
don't believe the compliment
but how is that different from any other day?
Oh yeah- my friend who lives so far away?
i lied-i liked him as more than a friend, but that
doesn't go anywhere except off this paper-
and to my good friends.
it wouldn't work out anyway.
spilt coke on my new jeans, that i live in day and night
okay, so maybe not nights.
just days.
i wore my favorite sweater,
that makes me feels so comfortable.
this is my curl up in a corner and watch the world fly
sweater.
it's not that it's all that pretty, it's just comfortable, you know?
i wish they'd play that song on the
radio- the one i like so much
still can't erase the picture of him-
sorry, sometimes i seem to babble.
i need to
wake, eat, live, sleep, dream.
maybe just dream.
and pass geometry.
Stillness
There was a still time
In my heart
One night
When everything stopped
Aside from
My heart and yours.
I swore I could
Hear my
Own heart echoing in the
Faint stillness--
And it was loud as
thunder.
And the
echoes of the
Thunder in the pitch
Black stillness?
Why that was your
Heart, my dearest.
And I swear your touch
Was as soft as a lily-petal.
And as the patterns of the
Motions
Of your fingers on
my skin cross
My mind--
I feel the Goosebumps.
And I smile a
Bitter smile
Because I know it is merely
Visions.
Visions
And I swore if I held out
My arms,
I could hold you
Jut as tightly as I did
and you would hold me
Just as tightly as you did
When the bustle stops
And the
Stillness
Took over
My mind.
I could feel
Daybreak on my face.
I could swear it.
It marked the
End of the
Stillness of darkness.
The bustle of what
I wished
To hide from
Forever
Took over.
I could feel you slip away
I could swear it --
Your love dissolving in
My arms.
And no matter how
Tightly I
held onto it --
you still
Were leaving -- leaving.
But were you leaving with me?
I could swear it.
I went back to the
Place of stillness
Later that cold
Cold season.
I sat down
In the place of stillness
And closed my eyes
And took a deep breath
And I could feel
you there
I swear it.
Your spirit engulfed
Me
And tears filled my eyes
And I wanted to
Let them flow
For once again your
Love was in my arms, my
Skin,
My lips --
My heart.
But I
Didn’t.
I left the stillness--
When I walked away
and looked back --
It was odd.
I saw the world
around it -- bustling, hurrying--
And in the core? In the very
center?
Stillness.
The air didn’t move
And
I could see your faint
Outline--
And I could see mine.
I could swear it.
I was smiling at you
You smiled at me.
And I felt my
Heart race
And sink
All at once.
For I realized I could
Live in the
Bustle and
in the stillness
all at once--
But I could never
fully have
you
again.
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If only a kiss,
To touch your perfect
Mouth.
If only a word from
It
Could reach my ears
Once more like
Falling
Rose petals...
The soft warmth
Of your hand
Once more only.
My name from your
Lips...
May the world ever be
At such
Peace.
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