Two months later I had quit school and got a full time job. I wasn't making as much as I had before and I was having a hard time paying my half of the bills. Kevin would tell me not to worry about it that he would cover it but I just didn't feel right about it. Most of the time Kev wasn't home. The guys had started to record a new album and from what Kat would tell me when we talked on the phone things were very tense in the studio. By now everyone knew about what happened to me and AJ. Everyone would try and get me to go out and have dinner or dancing, they would even set me up on dates. They just didn't get the fact that I wanted nothing to do with guys ever again. Joe and Ambear were going to be down in 3 days. Kevin had told them how bad I was doing and thought they might help cheer me up. "Kev I wish you didn't call Joe. Hes going to bitch and moan (not because of you Amber) until I go out and date again." He was getting tired of the same old song out of me. "Look Amber you need to get out there! You don't have that look in your eyes anymore. That green in them don't shine like they did before AJ." "Thats because AJ took that from me. All the trust I had for people is gone." I through the book I was reading down and went to my room to cry. He started to come after me but the door bell stopped him. "Hey Brian whats up?" Kev let his cousin in and shut the door. "Well I came to see Amber. I thought I would try and get her to go and hang out with me and Nick. She used to have fun kicking his butt at games and stuff." Brian thought about all the good times me and him had. He was so pissed at AJ for what he did to me. All the guys had seen me once or twice after that night. Even AJ knew the pain I was in.
"Hey Ambs let me in Kevin stripped off my cloths and let a bunch of girls in here to have there way with me!!!" Brain was pounding on my door and yelling. Good old Brain always knows how to crack a joke and make you laugh or smile. I opened the door and he ran into my room. Slamming the door behind him he picked me up in his arms and through me on the bed. "Hey I thought you were naked?! Only naked men are aloud in my room!" Brain had a grin on his face and started to undo his pants."If you say so!" I started to scream and hid my eyes. Kevin was standing on the other side of the door wishing to god he was more like Brian. Over the past two months his love had grown stronger. When me and AJ first broke up I had a hard time sleeping. there were lots of nights when Kev would wake up to hear me crying. He would come in and sleep with his arms around me and sing me to sleep. After awhile it stopped and I didn't need him to hold me. At night he would lay in bed and think about how it felt to have me in his arms. On more then one occasion his thoughts would wonder or he would have dreams about me. About what it would feel like to run his hands over my body, to taste me, and to feel his dick inside of me. It got to the point where he would have to get up almost every night to go jerk off to relieve him self. Shaking his head he went to go take a shower.
