October 5th 1997
All the acts had been rehearsing like crazy, for the Harpers charity ball,
we had all been given our time slots and we all knew which songs we were
going to be performing and all our dance steps. All that left to be done was
to actually get on and do the show.
As there was still two hour until the show began I decided to go and find
the guys from N'Sync and see how they were doing. It was a month since the
tour had ended and although I still regularly spoke to the guys on the phone
I hadn't actually seen them.
All the acts had been booked into hotels, I was lucky enough to be in the
same one as the N Sync guys. I went downstairs to reception.
"could you tell me which room Mr Joshua Chasez is in..." I asked the
obviously star struck receptionist.
She beamed at me like a teenager "Miss Lacey could I please have your
autograph. I just love your song 'Lost Love' its beautiful...
I politely obliged and signed the piece of paper thrust at me. She then gave
me an apologetic look.. " I am sorry Miss Lacey but I am not allowed to give
out guests room numbers without their express permission.."
"Can't you do it, just for me...please..?" I asked taking advantage of my
rising star status..
"well...." she said obviously debating what to do,
"Look.." I said, not wanting this girl to get into trouble with her
superiors.. "why don't you just call up JC, and tell him Jade Lacey would
like to come by and say hello.."
"Now that I can do..." she smiled
She started tapping into her computer to look for the relevant information,
I wandered over to admire the beautiful fountain which was situated in the
lobby..
The star struck receptionist was so overwhelmed at having Jade Laceys
autograph that she wasn't really paying attention to what she was supposed
to be doing..
"now let me see, did Miss Lacey say JC or AJ.....?..oh god I can't remember
who she said.."
The receptionist closed her eyes trying to recall the name she had been
requested to contact.
"AJ.!!" she finally said to herself.. "I am sure it is AJ McLean of the
BSB..." she quickly dialled up his room excited at the prospect of actually
getting to talk to the sexy superstar.
After two rings a raspy voice answered "Hello..?.."
"Hello Mr McLean, this is the front desk, I have Jade Lacey down here, she
has asked me to call you to see if it is alright if she comes up to see
you.."
Silence
"Mr McLean..?"
"okay send her up, this should be interesting.." click
The receptionist jotted the room number onto a piece of paper and as I
headed back over she handed it to me...
"Thanks.." I grinned "see ya later..." I gave her a little wave, I was so
excited to be seeing my friends again.
AJ quickly dialled Kevin's room number, Kevin answered immediately..
"hey Train, wait to you hear who is on their way up to see me.." he smirked.
Kevin shrugged.." Gwen Stefani..?" he said referring to AJ's long time
crush..
AJ laughed.." yeah don't I wish. No actually its...............Jade Lacey.."
"WHAT!!!" came the reply from a somewhat shocked Kevin.. "what the hell does
she want..?"
"Guess I'll find out in a minute, why don't you come over and say hello..?"
asked AJ
"I'll be right there.." said Kevin.. as he hung up the phone he gave a
devilish grin "what are you up to Mz Lacey, come to give us a piece of your
mind perhaps..?" this is going to be good he thought..
I stepped out of the elevator and headed out onto the 26th floor, I looked
at the number in my hand 303, I scanned the doors as I walked passed them..
"ahh, here we are 303.." I was just about to knock he the door swung open.
The person I came face to face with was definitely not Joshua Chasez. It was
that bastard AJ McLean.
"I-erm...I....wheres JC..?" I demanded. feeling a wave a nausea overcome me
AJ shrugged.. "How the hell should I know....so what do you want..?" I
watched as his eyes swept over my body, it was just like old times.
I went to walk away it was obvious there had been a mistake, I made a mental
note to give the girl at the front desk a severe talking to next time I saw
her. Just as I turned I slammed straight into a firm male chest reaking of a
familiar sweet cologne for a second my senses starting reeling and I felt
consumed with lust. Slightly stunned I backed away
I felt strong hands steadying my swaying body. It was only when I looked up
that I saw it was Kevin Richardson. Oh god I thought, this is like a bad
nightmare. I tried to side-step him and continue on my way, but instead
Kevin's hands gripped me tighter..
"Hey Mz Lacey, no happy reunions. I thought you would be pleased to see me
again..?"
he said in his soft southern accent..
"Fuck you..." I said crisply and once again tried to extract myself from his
grip.
Kevin didn't release his grip.."if thats what you want, my room is just down
the hall. Maybe you will use me next to further your career.." he replied
bitterly
AJ was still standing in the doorway..." man take this business out of the
hallway, we don't want the press getting hold of another story, bring her
into my room and we can all talk.."
Kevin nodded and started ushering me into AJ's room.
"EXCUSE ME.." I screamed loudly " BUT I HAVE NO INTENTIONS OF GOING ANYWHERE
WITH EITHER OF YOU TWO SON'S OF BITCHES, NOW LET ME GO.." I dug my heels
into the thick carpet pile panic starting to rise from the pit of my
stomach..
Kevin continued manoeuvring me inside AJ's room. "I am sorry Mz Lacey but I
think the three of us need to have a serious talk.."
Once inside AJ shut the door. Kevin sat me down onto the big double bed and
then sat down beside me, AJ sat opposite from us on a chair
"WHAT IS THE MEANING OF THIS.." I yelled shocked by their behaviour..
Despite everything, I still couldn't help but notice just how attractive
Kevin was. In any other circumstances I would have gone for Kevin in a big
way, he was just my type, tall dark and handsome.
Kevin took a deep breath "Okay Mz Lacey, here is the deal. I want you to
pull out of the charity show..."
I took a deep breath trying to steady my nerves "and why would I do that..?"
I asked thinking that this was all crazy..
"Because you dont belong in it.." he said his green eyes boring into mine
making me feel as giddy as a teenager.
"A-and may I ask why.." I said my nerves feeling rattled because of the
effect he was having on me.
Kevin leant slightly forward and spoke in a slow, sensual and dangerous
voice. "because I said so..."
I felt shivers run all through my body as his warm breath caressed my face.
I hated myself for reacting against his closeness to me. This was the man I
hated, yet at that instance I also wanted to jump into bed with him. Maybe I
have gone too long without a boyfriend in my life I argued with myself,
maybe I am getting desperate
"So because you say so, I am supposed to just drop out. I dont think so
baby.." I spat out
I stood up determined that I was going to be leaving this time...
AJ also stood up and crossed his arms in front of himself.. "hey, where you
going..you dont leave till Kevin says you leave, so SIT DOWN!.."
The look on AJ's face told me that it was best to just do as he requested
and sit back down. I did, and I noticed that AJ did too.."
Kevin's hand come up and he slowly and gently brushed his fingers across my
cheekbone
"you are so beautiful Jade, your skin so soft.."
I gulped, suddenly I was having trouble breathing, what was happening to
me..
"I'd love to have you lying underneath me, listening to you screaming out my
name as I thrust my manhood deep between your firm slim legs..." Kevin moved
in closer, I was VERY aware that his lips were just inches away from mine. I
could feel myself sinking into the depths of his very being, I could barely
think straight, I had even forgotten that AJ was in the room with us
"you would like that, wouldn't you Jade, you would like to lay down with
me.."
His voice was soft and deep and very soothing, I felt myself nodding yes..
Kevin just smiled and then cupped my chin with his thumb and forefinger
tilting my face up so that it was level with his..
"so would I.." he grinned before brushing his lips softly against mine..
That was it, I had well and truly drowned, I knew there would be no saving
me
I heard the sound of the door opening and then shutting, I figured that AJ
had left us..
Kevin just gazed seductively into my eyes, his hand gently sliding around my
collar bone sending bolts of electricity soaring through my body. Nothing
had ever prepared me for how good it would feel to become intimate with a
man.
"I want you Jade.." said Kevin with a thick voice "can I have you..?"
"I- well........." I tired to clear the fog in my mind, god I was a virgin,
this was the last man I wanted to give my virginity to, I had always
imagined giving it to someone special someone I loved..
As if sensing my hesitation Kevin leant forward again and captured my lips
with his, this time he pushed his way into my mouth and I felt the warmth in
my stomach as his tongue
skilfully explored the deeper recesses of my mouth, his hands were rubbing
incredibly up and down my back. God why did his hands have to feel so good
on my body, and the way he was kissing me. Damn this was the first time I
had ever been kissed. I bet he would have found that hysterically if he
knew..
Kevin slowly pulled away and then moved his lips to my ear gently kissing
and nibbling at the lobes. This man was driving me insane, all these
feelings coursing through my body were so brand new.
"can I have you...?" Kevin repeated whispering it into my ear before driving
his tongue inside it...
"Oh shit....Yes...Yes....take me.." I practically screamed, this man had
awoken a whole river of desire and I didn't know what to do with it..
Kevin stroked my hair from my face and smiled.. "thats what I thought, I
think you had better leave..."
"w-what..." I said wondering if I had heard him straight...
"once a slut, always a slut, you have just confirmed what I always expected,
you aint fussy who you sleep with are you bitch..just as long as it gets you
up the ladder to success.."
I suddenly felt my desire being replaced by hurt and anger and humiliation I
couldn't believe this was happening...
"THATS IT, I HAVE HAD ENOUGH OF YOUR INSINUATIONS, I THINK ITS TIME YOU
EXPLAINED YOURSELF TO ME. " I exploded my hands resting haughtily on my hips
Kevin went to brush passed me, but this time I grabbed his arm sinking my
nails into his bare skin
"DONT FUCKING WALK AWAY FROM ME..I WANT ANSWERS, WHY HAVE YOU NEVER
LIKED
ME, WHAT DID I EVER DO TO YOU HUH..?"
Kevin turned around his eyes twin pools of darkness..
"You really don't know do you...?" he hissed yanking his arm away from my
grip. I could see droplets of blood forming from where my nails broke the
skin
"well sit down babe, and I'll explain it to you.." he pushed me hard sending
me sprawling across AJ's bed. Kevin leant over me his hands resting bedside
each of my shoulders trapping me on the bed under him whilst he hovered over
me.
"we all know about how you slept with Johnny just to get an appointment with
him, we also know how you and Johnny had this big affair going on whilst you
were supporting us
it seems to me that you don't have any morals when it comes to getting ahead
in this business, I mean hell 5 minutes ago you were ready to spread your
legs for me.." he remarked
"No.." I gasped "you've got it all wrong..if you let me explain.."
"explain what..? don't give me your shit, we know its true, I mean how else
did you wind up going from supporting us to supporting N'Sync. You had it
all handed to you on a platter babe, and now you also have a No,1 record,
and to think you accomplished all this in about a year, pretty
impressive..."
"More like 10 years..." I cried starting to get scared, why would Kevin
think so badly about me I was still a virgin, untouched by any man, aside
from him
"what the hell you talking about 10 years.." he roared..
I had, had enough, I wanted out of his clutches, I raised my knee up quick
and hard
and Kevin groaned loudly before falling to the side of the bed clutching his
groin where my knee had targeted.
I ran for the door, my sight blurry due to the tears falling from them, why
was this happening to me..
I heard Kevin calling after me.. "Jade wait, what did you mean 10
years....JADE???"
I slammed the door and ran for the elevator, I pressed the buttons
frantically scared that Kevin would come after me.
The lift doors opened and I threw myself inside...
"Jade..?" I looked up to the enquiring voice inside of the elevator and saw
it was Chris from N'Sync..
"Oh Chris.." I sobbed wrapping my arms around his neck.." thank god..."
Chris wrapped his arms around me trying to comfort me..." My god whats
happened."
I was too upset to talk, instead Chris took me back to his room where he
rounded up the rest of his bandmates.
thirty minutes later I had filled them all in.
JC looked furious.."what a fucker, I ought to go and slam his face into a
wall.."
Justin looked confused.. " you know what the strange thing is. Even if Jade
had slept her way to the top, what business is it of Kevin and AJ's, I mean
shit we all know that actresses have often succumbed to the casting couch,
what the hell is their problem..?"
"I don't know.." I sobbed "All I know is that they are making my life a
misery, I have half a mind to call it a day and head back home, give up this
singing business, maybe I am just not cut out for it.." I rattled on
"ENOUGH JADE.." Hollered Joey " you are talking rubbish, you mean to tell me
you would give this all up after finally getting it, Hell girl you waited 10
years to reach this point..Dont let those Backstreet Pricks wreck your
dreams.."
"hear hear..." smiled Lance..
"I guess..." I sighed wiping my tears....
JC looked at his watch." Look I hate to be unfeeling and all, but we have a
show to do tonight, we had all better head over to the stadium, Jade come
with us, we'll travel together.."
"Thanks.." I said managing a little smile, although I wondered how I would
perform especially as right now I didn't seem to be able to stop crying.