For Tina it all really began 15-16 years ago (I am now 36). One night while I was sitting around with a girlfriend. I can not absolutely remember if it was Karen's suggestion or mine that I put on her high heels that were lying on the floor. As I think back on it, even if it was Karen's suggestion I remember wanting to put on those heels. (By the way I am 5'6" 130 lb., and Karen was probably 1.5 inches taller than me so putting on those heels was no problem, my small size has worked to my advantage) In any event, all I did was walk to the refrigerator and back in her heels, that is in a matter of speaking and perspective. That small action was the birth of Tina, however it took several years to come about. I ended up moving away from New York and Karen, but ended up with some of Karen's lingerie. (A garter belt, panties, and hose) So guess what, even though Karen was not with me, she was with Tina. Those few lingerie items Tina kept for several years, and Tina lived in the dresser with them. However Tina did become more and more well known and anticipated for her very private showings. I would still have to say that Tina was yet to be born. It was just this growing fantasy and thing to do.

Then about 8 years ago Tina discovered AOL and the Internet! And Tina came bursting into existence. As soon as I discovered the chat rooms and the postings. I knew that what I had been feeling was more than what it had appeared to be all this time.

I found the following on-line, but it is as if someone had written about me ------ "I'm not sure what it is that keeps me lured to crossdressing.  I guess at some level it fulfills a need, a yearning, a desire of some sort that otherwise would remain unsatisfied.  But it is still so incongruous with my "male" side! I don't mean to unfairly stereotype, but as a male I'm not an overly sensitive, artsy type.  I come across as a beer drinking, football watching regular guy!  Although I must admit, that some of that seems to be changing, too. Or if, as I've become ever more involved with, and in touch with, my femininity, that feminine awareness is having more of an effect upon the totality of who I am than I realized. Its like crossdressing kept pulling me deeper and deeper into it, beckoning me to explore, tantalizing me with the feelings and images of soft, sweet femininity, and I lacked the will to resist indeed, I ran to meet it, to embrace it."

If is hard for me to talk or write about my femininity because I do not know it yet, I only know that I love the thought and feel of it, and exploring it's possibilities. And that there is a huge sexual attraction to it for me.

Tina is still very much growing and experimenting, and never has enough time. I am happily married and plan on staying that way. My wife has no idea about Tina and I do not have any plans of telling her. I have dropped several very discrete hints, too discrete I guess, about this item of lingerie or hose, they being mine or for me, but that is as far as it has gone. I have also bought the wife several leather outfits hoping to get her to play more of a dominant roll when wearing them but again not much luck.

I am still such a novice at it all, my only friends are those on-line, and there it is hard to find the ones that are real, and can get past, "What are you wearing?"  My chances of discovery are limited because of my own personal choices; I am not going to sacrifice anything at the cost of my family or career. But search on Tina will.

Thanks for listening and I hope to hear from you soon!