As the end draws near and the work of giving
the last warning to the world extends, it becomes more important
for those who accept present truth to have a clear understanding
of the nature and influence of the Testimonies, which God in
His providence has linked with the work of the third angel's
message from its very rise. In the following pages are given
extracts from what I have written during the last forty years,
relating to my own early experience in this special work, and
also presenting what God has shown me concerning the nature and
importance of the Testimonies, the manner in which they are given,
and how they should be regarded.
"It was not long after the passing
of the time in 1844 that my first vision was given me. I was
visiting a dear sister in Christ, whose heart was knit with mine;
five of us, all women, were kneeling quietly at the family altar.
While we were praying, the power of God came upon me as I had
never felt it before. I seemed
to be surrounded with light, and to be rising higher and higher
from the earth." [TESTIMONIES FOR THE CHURCH, VOL. 1, P.
58.] At this time I had a view of the experience of the advent
believers, the coming of Christ, and the reward to be given to
the faithful.
"In a second vision, which soon followed
the first, I was shown the trials through which I must pass,
and that it was my duty to go and relate to others what God had
revealed to me. It was shown me that my labors would meet with
great opposition and that my heart would be rent with anguish,
but that the grace of God would be sufficient to sustain me through
all. The teaching of this vision troubled me exceedingly, for
it pointed out my duty to go out among the people and present
the truth."
"One great fear that oppressed me
was that if I obeyed the call of duty and went out declaring
myself to be one favored of the Most High with visions and revelations
for the people, I might yield to sinful exaltation and be lifted
above the station that was right for me to occupy, bring upon
myself the displeasure of God, and lose my own soul. I had before
me several cases such as I have here described, and my heart
shrank from the trying ordeal.
"I now entreated that if I must go and
relate what the Lord had shown me, I should be preserved from
undue exaltation. Said the angel: 'Your prayers are heard and
shall be answered. If this evil that you dread threatens you,
the hand of God will be stretched out to save you; by affliction
He will draw you to Himself and preserve your humility. Deliver
the message faithfully. Endure unto the end, and you shall eat
the fruit of the tree of life and drink of the water of life.'"
At this time there was fanaticism among
some of those who had been believers in the first message. Serious
errors in doctrine and practice were cherished, and some were
ready to condemn all who would not accept their views. God revealed
these errors to me in vision and sent me to
His erring children to declare them; but in performing this duty
I met with bitter opposition and reproach.
"It was a great cross for me to relate
to the erring what had been shown me concerning them. It caused
me great distress to see others troubled or grieved. And when
obliged to declare the messages I would often soften them down
and make them appear as favorable for the individual as I could
and then would go by myself and weep in agony of spirit. I looked
upon those who had only their own souls to care for and thought
if I were in their condition I would not murmur. It was hard
to relate the plain, cutting testimonies given me of God. I anxiously
watched the result, and if the persons reproved rose up against
the reproof, and afterward opposed the truth, these queries would
arise in my mind: Did I deliver the message just as I should?
Could there not have been some way to save them? And then such
distress pressed upon my soul that I often felt that death would
be a welcome messenger, and the grave a sweet resting place.
"I did not realize the danger and
sin of such a course until in vision I was taken into the presence
of Jesus. He looked upon me with a frown and turned His face
from me. It is not possible to describe the terror and agony
I then felt. I fell upon my face before Him, but had no power
to utter a word. Oh, how I longed to be covered and hid from
that dreadful frown! Then could I realize, in some degree, what
the feelings of the lost will be when they cry: 'Mountains and
rocks, Fall on us, and hide us from the face of Him that sitteth
on the throne, and from the wrath of the Lamb.'
"Presently an angel bade me rise,
and the sight that met my eyes can hardly be described. Before
me was a company whose hair and garments were torn, and whose
countenances were the very picture of despair and horror. They
came close to me and rubbed their garments upon mine. As I looked
at my garments I saw that they
were stained with blood. Again I fell like one dead at the feet
of my accompanying angel. I could not plead one excuse and longed
to be away from that holy place. The angel raised me to my feet
and said: 'This is not your case now, but this scene has passed
before you to let you know what your situation must be if you
neglect to declare to others what the Lord has revealed to you.'"
[VOL. 1, PP. 73, 74.] With this solemn warning before me I went
out to speak to the people the words of reproof and instruction
given me of God.