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Kristin Quail The Day My Life Changed
I remember this day like it was just last night. It was a cool night and there was a graduation party at one of my friend Jennifer's house. We were partying and having a lot of fun. Some people were out on the dance floor others were sitting around just taking in the night and some of us were walking around mingling. On such a fun night, how does the world of someone end so suddenly. This is a point in my life that I will never forget. His face was soft to the touch, His eyes were always glowing with happiness and his radiant smile always seem to brighten the room. He was the life of the party with his humor, he was the first one to laugh and he would never lose his cool. I remember the cold rush of shock run from my fingers all the way down to my toes. Disbelief ran through my mind and pain ran through my heart. I didn't want to believe that my friend, the boy who could always say one thing and put a smile on everybody's face who surrounded him had passed away. I stood at the scene like I was stone. The morning after it finally hit home. We stood at the scene of the accident just crying and embracing each other hoping that somehow it would get better. The tree looked beautiful with all the flowers, beanie babies, notes, poems, and a Tommy Hilfiger flower arrangement with the name Mark in it that just reminded us of him. Even though all this was going on, it still had a lot of setting in to do. The next three days that we were about to enter were going to be the toughest of them all. As I entered the doorway of funeral parlor, nervousness and sadness came all at once. The halway that we had walk down seemed endless. As I entered the room tears immediately came streaming down my face. I thought this had to be the worst. To see the boy who used to come to my house and walk in my room to talk and make me laugh, the kid who my brother grew up, shared memories and clothes with just laying their lifeless had to be the worst feeling I ever felt. His family in the first row staring blanky at the coffin made the tears stream harder than ever. Alan and Kevin lost their beloved brother and their parents lost their son who could brighten anyone's day. Friends and other family members lost someone whom they could confide in, or someone to go to that party with or even just someone to talk to. The last and final day was the saddest, friends and family all gathered at the cementery for the last and final goodbye. The processional leading us their with Mark at the head as the leader he was and always will be. We finally got their and someone was handing out roses to be put on his coffin. As we approached the coffin Tear in Heaven was playing over the radio and I got a pain in my heart and I guess that's when it officially set in. The pain is and always will be there. Finally, the moment came to walk up to the coffin and my body suddenly felt weak and I put the pink carnation on the coffin as all the memories came flooding back. I cried my eyes out so hard I cound't breathe but I didn't care I just wanted to see mark again. It's two months and a couple of days since Mark died and the shock still hasn't settled in. I miss him with all my heart and can't wait till the day we see each other again. Until then he will live in my heart and mind forever. PREVIOUS NEXT |