From the road he could imagine the tree in the drawing room, but instead of the twinkling colored lights he knew David would have wrapped around it, he saw the hundreds of tiny candles that had enchanted him on the Christmas
mornings of his own childhood. He could smell the goose roasting, hear the chestnuts popping open in the fire. He stood, snow falling around him, and sifted through his memories of Christmas past. His grandfather reading the story of that first
Christmas from the huge family bible, Carl laughing as he watched his sister and brothers unwrap the lumps of coal he'd presented them with, then turning suddenly serious with affection as he brought forth the real gifts. His own excitement that year he had found his first razor and strop under the tree, and realized they no longer thought of him as a boy. Jamison and Nora rushing
into the drawing room, eyes lighting up in wonder at the sight of the magic Santa had performed as they slept.
Tommy and Christina would be caught up in that same sense of
magic, in just a few hours, at the first hint of morning. If he were to continue up the
walk
now, open the door, he could be a part of their Christmas - David's,
Amy's and
the children's. He could sit, sipping buttered rum, watching. as they
opened
the pile of presents that would be under the tree, presents that had
been
delivered by sleigh, from Santa, or by mail, from him, their "cousin"
Quentin.
But for now he was content to stand at the gate, and remember a
Collinwood of
a bygone age. Time had softened the edges of memory, and he
looked back on
them with a fondness that had never crept into his heart when they
were all
together. Judith and Edward did not seem quite so forbidding, nor
Carl so
silly. On this Christmas Eve, he actually found himself missing them.
His nostalgia for the past amused him, but only briefly, for thoughts of
his
sister and brothers were quickly crowded out by the more real
longings that
were with him every day. As he gazed across the expanse of snow
covered lawn,
he could almost hear the bell's of Jamison's pony sleigh, see his
nephew
racing across the blanket of winter that covered the gardens. This was
the
Jamison he had thought about earlier, as he had laid one of the two
sprigs of
holly he had brought with him at the cemetery - the other he had left at
Widow's Hill.
And now, with the clarity of a long held dream, he saw her walking
towards
him. She was dressed in white, a dusty blue shawl across her
shoulders, her
hair down, looking as she had on those long ago nights when he had
stolen into
her room. She seemed to glide along the path, leaving no footprints in
the
snow, until, finally, the distance between them was closed.
He reached for her, and could feel the apprehension that had so long
been a
part of him uncoil, setting him free as she leaned into his embrace.
Tears
knotted in his throat, there was so much to say to her, but he couldn't
trust
his voice not to break. He could only hold her, but wanted nothing
more. So
easily, so comfortably, they molded into one another - it could have
been
moments rather than years they had been apart.
A sense of rightness
he had
never hoped to feel again spread through him, warming him, and
before his lips
found hers, he was at last able to speak - "My Beth."
She returned his kiss with an honesty he had never forgotten, a
simplicity
that reached his heart as no other woman had ever been able to. He
thought of
all the reasons he had ever given her to doubt him, and was overcome
with
tenderness at the purity of faith that was her. Pulling back, he held her
face in his hands, searched her eyes.
"It's always been you."
She smiled at him, took his hand and led him through the gate. "Look,
Quentin," she pointed to a spot beyond the house. above the tower,
"it can be
beautiful, can't it?"
For the first time, he noticed the full moon that hung in the winter sky.
It
cast its light on the house, on her. She was beautiful in moonlight, he
remembered that now. For so long he had tried to ignore the moon
and its
memories, but now could think only of the nights they had shared
before the
moon had lost its romance.
She had taken a few steps away from him, and stood in a patch of
moonlight on
the quilt of snow. "Tell me your Christmas wishes."
"I wish for you."
"I'm here."
"Then I wish to be at peace."
She nodded. "I know, I wouldn't have come to you if I didn't."
Across the night, the Christmas chimes Amy had hung by the terrace
stirred in
the wind. As the metallic notes carried through the air, they began to
change, and the tones wove into a melody far more familiar to the two
of them.
Quentin felt himself caught up in joy, and stretched his arm out
towards her.
"May I have this dance?"
She smiled at him, that smile that had once coaxed him into forgetting
everything save that he loved her. She was in his arms again, and
together
they swept across the snow covered lawn. The wind rose, the snow
swirled
around them, until the house and the moon were lost behind curtains
of winter,
and they could see only each other.
And still they danced.
"They've found each other."
Amy joined her husband by the window, and they stood holding onto
each other,
watching as Quentin and Beth danced through the snow. How
entrancing they
were now, as they had been then, and Amy smiled to herself,
remembering how
their love story had been the beginning of her own.
Neither David nor Amy was surprised to find the sheriff at the door,
or to
hear that an old man had been found outside the gate, frozen in the
snow,
clutching an old blue shawl around his frail shoulders.
A vagrant, the sheriff was assuming, had tried to keep warm by
burning his
few meager possessions. Nothing much left, not enough to identify the
man -
only the clasp of his suitcase, a few shreds of clothing that had refused
to
burn completely, and a charred scrap of canvas. Sorry to bother them
on the
holiday.
David stood in the open doorway, watched the sheriff leave. Later he
would
call, offer to provide a decent Christian burial for the old man.
Quentin
would want that, to be laid to rest here, at home. To finally find peace
at
Collinwood.
He gazed out across the yard - the snow had settled into a smooth
carpet of
brilliance, glistening with reflected sunlight, unbroken, untouched. He
turned to go back inside, and just before closing the door he noticed
it, a
brightly wrapped package in the alcove of the entry. He stooped to
pick it
up, and looked at Amy.
She was watching him, not daring to breath. She wanted to keep this
moment,
knowing that when it was broken, the story that had begun to unfold
so long
ago would be written. It would be time, at last, to say good-bye.
It was with sadness she took the package from David. She sat on the
stair,
slowly undid the ribbon, folded back the paper, lifted the lid from the
box.
It was exquisitely crafted, its base carved and polished by hand, the
glass
of its globe as fragile as a butterfly's wing. Under the dome the
porcelain
figures had been sculpted with such care, they almost seemed alive.
Each fold
of the woman's floor length gown fell in cascades delicate enough to
be real
silk; the tails of the man's frock coat lifted slightly, as though stirred by
the motion of the waltz they were frozen in.
David sat beside her, bringing her back into the present. She turned it
over, noticed the small button on the underside of the base. Gently
she
righted it, pressing on the button as she did so.
An incandescent glow illuminated the lovers under glass, as they
slowly began
to revolve, the sparkling particles of glitter sifting through their crystal
womb, falling around them.
Side by side David and Amy sat, captivated by this gift that had been
left
for them. Side by side they saw it to its end, together, as when it had
begun. Amy laid her head on David's shoulder and broke the silence.
"This is how we will always remember them. Dancing in the
moonlight, on new
fallen snow."