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Hello there :-) Are you curious as to how my romantic weekend went?? Well, it was WONDERFUL!!!! But, nooooo, I decided not to give any details except to say that I came home very relaxed and content ;-) Yes, we went out to dinner, took walks, went shopping, watched a couple movies, talked, laughed, etc. etc. too.
MAY 7, 1999
I'm so glad it's Friday! I need to know that I can come home tonight and relax. Last night was very crazy or should I say that I acted very crazy. It was like all of a sudden, I lost patience with the world. I yelled at my son and then I yelled at my mother when she called. Poor thing was just worried about the weather, but was I a sympathetic daughter?? Nope...I wasn't. I let her wackiness get to me once again and I lost control :-( If only she... yeah right!! She'll never change and I just have to accept that. Some how -- Some way...
MAY 8, 1999
I really struggled with myself yesterday. I guess I was still feeling guilty for losing control. I keep asking myself WHY?? Have I been pushing myself to do more than I need to? or am I frustrated with this long distance relationship with John? I guess I have to admit that it's both...
MAY 9, 1999
I talked with John yesterday about my frustrations and he was able to soothe me like no other man has been able to do. He truly is connected with me and trys to understand how my mind works and how my heart builds up defenses from getting hurt. And instead of backing away and shutting down like others have, he gets right in there and literally pulls my thoughts from me. To me, this is very important. It's not one-sided though, I've been really trying to be more open with him, to tell him things before they build up and explode. And I'll keep on working on it...
Last night I talked to my old friend Mike from my dorm days. Haven't talked to him in years. It was great!! What's sad though is he thought I was dead :-( Can you believe that? We were on the phone for nearly an hour and had a great time talking about the good old days.
MAY 12, 1999
Would you believe that I keep forgetting to mention two things? The first one is that I thought I'd share the wonderful news about my ex-husband getting married. Yep, just six months from the time of the divorce, the crazy man is already married again. Now tell me, does he marry for convenience or for love?? The second thing is that there are MORE baby bird eggs in the nest on my balcony!! I noticed them about a week ago so put that on your calendars and let's see how long it takes before they hatch :-)
MAY 18, 1999
I went on an adventure this past weekend to the coast with my mother. And yes, we had a GREAT time!! I couldn't believe how well we got along and how much fun we actually had. We both decided that we get along much better away from the drudgeries of everyday life. We are both looking forward to going back and relaxing on the beach :-)
The mother bird is still laying on her eggs :-)
MAY 23, 1999
Just returned from visiting my father this weekend. It was a fun trip even though it was short... the first thing we did was go for a five mile bike ride to eat breakfast... then we went to a marina restaurant for lunch. It was pretty cool to be right on the water; however, we didn't eat lunch but just had a beer. It was way too expensive for my dad's liking :) Then we went to a seafood market and bought some fresh shrimp and my aunt showed me how to dehead and devein them... I had never done that before. It was pretty easy in fact. And of course delicious!! The rest of the afternoon was spent lazing around my dad's new screened in back porch which he built over his brick patio... he really did a spectacular job on it. There was even a hammock in there. And of course I laid out there studying but soon feel asleep... Delightful little nap. :) I left after this morning's bike ride... we went down to a lake and fed the ducks. Now I'm home getting ready to fix dinner and do some more studying.
Oh yeah, I've decided to rent a house instead of an apartment. This way, I'll know whether I can handle a home of my very own.
MAY 27, 1999
The little baby birds have hatched!!! I think it must have happened on Tuesday the 25th--maybe Monday. I'll keep watch now to see how long it takes for them to fly away from their nest. Hopefully it will be before I move.
Well, life sure is funny sometimes. Just when I thought I had it made, I get the news that my boss is leaving and that I'm to take his place since I'm the ranking NCO. I really wanted more time to get to know my job again before jumping into the hot seat, but I guess we can't have everything we want. So it looks like the pressures, the stresses, and the complications will have to be somehow controlled so that I don't get all whacked out and get sick again. Exercise will play a key role here as well as comfort and support from my loved ones.
Note to myself here... I first felt it yesterday. Pencil eraser maybe?
MAY 29, 1999
It's Christina's graduation day!! I can't believe she is graduating from high school. My how the years go by. Seems like just yesterday that she was just 9 years old and starting the 5th grade. (That's when she came to live with me and her father) Wow! I am very very proud of her and all that she has gone through to get to this point in her life. She is even moving out next week into her OWN apartment. She has a job of course and just recently got accepted to the local university. You go girl!!!
Later.... Well, that was interesting. I just spent the afternoon with Ken and his new wife Marsha. She seems pretty nice and we got along well. No problems whatsoever. We even had our picture taken together. Her idea. I think she wanted to send it to someone. I guess to say, "hey look, me and Ken's ex-wife are smiling together." Cute, huh? Actually, I have to admit it was a little strange to see them together, however by the end of dinner, I was so relieved that "I" didn't have to go home with him or deal with him anymore. She can have him--lock, stock and barrel :-) :-)
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